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Friday, December 31, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects”– Chapter 3 (continued)

It was, in fact, the sixth car before Catrina made her way to the front of the line. Two of the engineering teams ahead of her were transporting cargo that was too awkward to carry through the Jefferies tubes. She was pressed into the rear of the car as one more security officer squeezed himself in. He was a bit too bulky to fit, and she thought of telling him so, but the doors had already begun to slide closed.

It did not improve her mood when only one person exited at the next level, leaving her to push her way through the tightly-packed group when the lift reached Deck Four, as no one seemed to have any need to get off there.

She paused in the corridor as the lift doors closed behind her. Brushing at her uniform, she was certain that someone had smudged it somewhere, but could find nothing readily apparent. With an annoyed huff, she down the corridor. On this deck, at least, the directions were clearly marked. Even though the wall panels could be used to direct her, there were obvious signs indicating the way to Sickbay. Of course, she knew, they would want the path to the ship’s infirmary to be very clear.

It was a short walk from the turbolift, making her feel somewhat confident that she had found the shorter of the two paths. Well, shorter in distance maybe, she considered with mild sullenness, wondering if the other turbolift had also had a line queued up for it. The doors parted for her and she entered Sickbay. She stopped immediately, staring around the chamber.

Seven hours is not going to be long enough . . .

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Catrina rubbed her eyes. They felt dry and grainy, telling her that she had focused too hard for too long on screen. As far as she could tell, all of the crew’s medical records had been received and verified. Nearly all of the crew had also been physically cleared by a member of the medical staff. All, except for one.

With a determined sigh, she picked up a padd and quickly transferred the records to it. She rose, stretching the aches from her lower back, and then headed for the door. If she had her way, this ship would not leave space dock until this matter was settled.

She found her way back to the turbolift easily enough. Relieved to see no queue this time, she stepped into the waiting car, turning so she faced the doors.

“Bridge.” She ordered tightly, not bothering to hide her annoyance. The computer would not care anyway.

There was a brief pause and, for a moment, Catrina thought it might reject her command. As Chief Medical Officer, she should have access to the bridge, as well as many otherwise restricted areas of the ship. Not only did rank have its privileges, but it was bad form to keep a doctor from her patients in an emergency situation.

The doors slid closed and the lift ascended.

Moments later, the opened onto a short corridor that led onto the bridge itself. The security guard on duty there glanced at her uniform and rank and allowed her to pass without challenge. Catrina fought back a sniff of derision. The ship’s computer had probably already alerted him as to who had entered the turbolift and their destination.

She stepped onto the main bridge and paused, taking in the activity around her. The pace and tension was about what she expected this close to departure. People were moving quickly and purposefully, generally avoiding collisions as they passed one another. There was a pleasant hum of conversation, which Catrina much preferred to the shouts of a ship’s crew under fire.

Her eyes went to the seat in the approximate center of the bridge. She caught a glimpse of a blue-skinned humanoid in a uniform trimmed with command crimson discussing orders with someone in Engineering colors. There she is. The Captain. Theleth.

Catrina strode forward, stopping when she stood to one side of the command chair. The captain finished her conversation with the officer from Engineering and then turned to face her.

“Doctor,” she acknowledged Catrina evenly. “Is there something you need before we launch?”

“Captain,” Catrina responded, giving the title sharp enunciation. “I need to speak with you.”

Theleth frowned. “Can it wait until we clear space dock?”

“No,” Catrina replied firmly. “But it should only take a few moments of your time.”

Theleth studied her for a moment before nodding. She rose from the chair and headed toward what Catrina assumed was the Ready Room, clearly expecting the doctor to follow her.

Catrina followed Theleth as a slight distance, noting the graceful, almost feline manner in which she walked. Theleth entered the Ready Room, stopped just inside, and waited for the door to close behind Catrina.

“What can I help you with, Doctor?”

That Theleth remained standing told Catrina that the captain intended for this conversation to be brief as well. She was fine with that. The conversation might be. What happened afterward as a result might take a bit longer.

“I’ve received medical clearances for every member of the crew, except for one.”

“Yes?” Theleth responded with an almost Vulcan-like calm.

“That would be you, Captain.” Catrina realized that she had failed to keep a certain snide edge from her tone.

“You have my medical records,” the Theleth said flatly.

“Current as of the stardate when you returned to active duty,” Catrina stated. “Four months ago.”

She added nothing, letting the fact speak for itself. Theleth’s medical records had not been updated since she had assumed command, other than a mostly symbolic approval by a member of the staff of the head of Starfleet Medical.

“Can this wait until after we leave spacedock?” Theleth asked calmly. “We have a schedule to keep with the station. They need this berth.”

Catrina studied the Andorian woman for a long moment. It was not quite the dodge that she had expected. Second only to doctors, ship captains made the worst patients. If Theleth was hiding something, it was not something that might jeopardize her position in command of the vessel. Something personal, then?

“Sickbay,” Catrina said firmly. “Zero eight hundred.” That seemed a reasonable compromise to her. That’ll gave her an hour to get the ship out of spacedock and clear the system. Plenty of time, even if they ran into a few minor hitches.

“I’ll be there.”

Catrina nodded and left the Ready Room without waiting to be dismissed. Somehow, she knew that Theleth really would be there—and on time.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects”– Chapter 3

CatrinaDoctor Catrina Running Horse-Brasington stepped from the transporter platform, ignoring the other five people who had beamed aboard with her.

“Ensign,” she called out to the uniformed crew member assisting the transporter chief. “Where’s sickbay?”

The young human woman glanced at Catrina’s uniform colors and looked confused. Catrina could understand her confusion, but simply did not have time to deal with it right now.

“Sickbay,” she repeated, not bothering to hide her harried state of mind.

The ensign glanced over at the transporter chief. He finished checking the status of the controls and then looked up at Catrina. He was large, well-muscled Caitian with amber fur.

“Deck Four.” He announced, as if double-checking against some memorized schematic in his head. “All turbolifts, except from the aft cargo bays, can take you there.”

“Thank you,” Catrina responded, gave the useless ensign a quick glance, and hurried out of the room.

The corridor was filled with crew members busy at their various assignments. She glanced in both directions, knowing that there must be a turbolift access down each of them. The question was: which was the closer one? She would be damned if she was going to ask for directions again.

Basing her decision on nothing more than a quick mental guess, she headed to starboard.

Seven hours to prepare Sickbay for departure, she groused silently, and not for the first time that evening. It was nice that Dr. M’hutta decided to accept a position with the Andorian Science Council, but s/he could have given a little more notice. It was not like when s/he went on personal leave to hatch his/her pods, leaving Starfleet Medical with plenty of warning.

It was not that Catrina was against accepting an assignment aboard a starship again, but she had rather hoped that it might be on a medical relief vessel, or perhaps on some kind of scientific survey. Serving as the Chief Medical Officer on a heavily armed escort-class vessel had been very low on her list of preferred postings. She had seen enough combat duty during the initial Klingon attacks on some of the outer colonies without going out looking for a fight.

She nearly collided with a crewmember in an Engineering tunic, prepared to scold him for being in her way, when she realized that he had halted for a reason. To her mounting dismay and frustration, there was a line of crew personnel waiting to use the turbolift. She did a rapid mental calculation, quickly counting the number of crew members ahead of her, and determined that she could probably take the fourth of fifth car.

For a moment, she considered pushing her way through. She could state loudly that she was a doctor and needed to get on her way. In truth, though, there was no emergency, except for the one going on in her mind, so she settled in to wait with the rest. Unhappily so, but she did.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Justice Blue: The Morning After

Justice-Blue_blog-2Allison awoke with headache. It was the sharp, throbbing kind, reminiscent of a migraine, but without the associated halos and nausea. She tried to rise and reconsidered the last part. Her eyes squeezed shut against the sudden bright onslaught; everything seemed too vivid and sharp. Her stomach voiced its own complaints. It was definitely not a migraine, she decided, cautiously blinking her eyes open again. While her brain hurt from the inside, it lacked the searing stabs of agony that accompanied one.

She forced herself into a sitting position, cradling her forehead in her palms. They were cool and helped some, but the throbbing eased only slightly. She then realized the pain for what it was—something she had managed to avoid (sometimes barely) for over two years. That occasion had been Nicolette’s bachelorette party—and well worth the resulting consequences. But that had been two years ago . . . What had been the occasion last night?

Easing herself to her feet with an audible groan, she then half-shuffled, half-stumbled to the bathroom. She left the light off, relying on the diffuse reflected light from the bedroom to tell her what she needed to know. She glanced at the toilet: the lid was down. Her stomach, though, seemed willing to play nice, so she left it that way. She ran some water, splashing some of it onto her face. Gasping at the cold contact, she took a deep breath. It did seem to help banish some of the haze from her mind.

With her hands bracing her against the sink, she blinked at her reflection in the mirror. She had looked worse. Lowering her head, she tried to make sense of the flash of images that now danced through her thoughts as she tried to remember.

A guy in a skirt? No . . . a kilt? No . . . Biceps. She focused on that thought for a moment, recalling thick, heavily-muscled arms. And a tank top. No . . . chest armor? And thighs. Superbly sculptured legs that showed the curve of every muscle.

A picture began to form in her mind. He appeared like something out of Gladiator, but better groomed. Had she somehow fallen in with some refuges from a Renaissance Faire? That hardly seemed her type, even if, for some reason, they did tend to gravitate toward her. But this guy had been a hunk. He was also some kind of executive or business owner, if she remembered correctly. Hardly the usual uber-geek type who either shared an apartment with three roommates or still lived with his parents.

She remembered now. They’d gone to the D, eschewing the crowds and college-level behavior at the seasonal chalet, for one of the bars on the upper level. He had ordered . . . Guinness, while she had downed two (?!) cranberry martinis in fairly short order. He had propositioned her . . . for a possible executive-level position with his company. All she could remember wanting was to find herself in a position where she could find out whether other parts of his anatomy were was as well-muscled as his arms and thighs.

There were other snippets of conversation that she could not recall clearly, but she was fairly certain that she had divulged nothing of importance about her position or any information that was not public knowledge about the activities of her employers. After that, things got a bit more vague.

Cautiously, she lightly patted at her bra and panties, discovering (with some small disappointment) that neither seemed to have been tampered with. Wow, she thought. A hunk and a gentleman.

At that point, her stomach decided that it was finally time to voice its protests against the excesses of the previous evening. Allison dropped to her knees, managing to fling open the lid of the toilet just in time, and had a renewed acquaintance with her lunch and martinis from the night before.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

“This is about Randolph and his family,” she offered softly. “Isn’t it?” Her eyes lowered in sympathy. “I knew it would hit you eventually.”

Walter’s lips formed a grim line. It was not the first time he had been forced to deal with the death of a comrade, but the brutal way in which he—and his children!—had been murdered. Great gouts of flame rose unbidden to his thoughts. He could hear their screams . . .

It took a visible effort of will for him to once again bury the scene deep into his mind. He was still not ready to deal with it, not then . . . perhaps never. He forced a slow, shuddering breath before managing to banish it completely. His eyes instead now focused on his raised fingertips in the dark.

“It’s not just that,” Walter replied, breathing a new sigh. “It’s also the riots and Chernobyl--”

“I thought Doctor Hardin said you all were clean from that?” Clara’s tone was meant to be reassuring, but Walter found that he found little comfort in it.

“We are,” Walter nodded, really wanting to believe it. Despite the assurances from the doctor and other specialists that the combination of their special treatments, along with his unusual electrochemical physiology, had left him freer of radioactive traces than before he and the other heroes had assisted with the emergency at the Soviet reactor. A part of him refused to accept the report, haunted by the remaining mysteries of long-term radiation exposure.

“He did,” he admitted flatly. “But I’m still glad that happened first . . .” His eyes went back to her stomach.

Clara’s eyes never left Walter, but her hand moved to lightly rub at the barely noticeable swelling there. Her lips formed a slight smile.

“It did,” she said, letting her smile grow. “And he’s fine.”

Walter allowed himself to smile. Both their regular doctor and Hardin had confirmed that their new son was developing normally, with no traces so far of anything unusual in the amniotic fluid.

Her hand moved to Walter’s arm and gripped it gently. “Walter,” she said. “Your friends need you.”

Walter shook his head slowly. “I’m not that important,” he said, his voice a whisper of pain. “They’ll manage without me. They did before I showed up.”

He felt Clara’s hand release him. It now moved to turn his face toward hers. Her eyes stared into his, warm, loving, and understanding. She bent and kissed him softly.

“I know you’ll do what’s right,” she said. “For everyone.” She kissed him lightly on the cheek and left the room.

Walter stared into the dark shadows of the room for several long moments. Through the open door, he could hear the sharp call of distant sirens. They sounded like the shrill screams of children.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

November 28, 1986

Sirens sounded in the distance. Although far away, it was apparent that there were a large number of them. They were joined by the clattering echo of two helicopters passing overheard, one of them fairly large or heavily-loaded from its sound. Clara waited, but failed to hear the whining drone of the garage door opening.

Clara found Walter sitting alone in the room that served as his study. The room was illuminated only by the single small bulb of desk lamp. It gave the room a stringent, yellowish glow that would have been reminiscent of candlelight, had it flickered. She paused in the doorway, studying his gray silhouette. His gaze seemed focused on something far distant.

Walter had heard her enter, but did not stir in the chair.

“Why are you still here?”

Her tone was quiet, inquisitive, and gentle.

Walter’s head slowly turned toward her. His eyes shone darkly in the strange lighting, but she could see them come into focus.

“I can do it any more, Clara,” Walter answered quietly. His voice sounded hoarse, as if he were choking something back. “It’s not safe.” He stared hard into her eyes. “Not for you, not for him,” his eyes darted in the direction of the hallway before turning to the slight curve of her stomach. “Not for anyone.”

Clara stepped into the room, but left the remaining lights off. She paused beside him, placing a hand gently on his shoulder. They remained like that in silence for a long moment.

“It never has been, love,” she stated softly. “Not since the day you first saved me from those thugs.”

Walter stared at her.

In that moment, he realized for the first time that what she had said was true. Even before he had revealed his hero identity to her, she had been at risk because of him. That he had shown even the slightest interest in her made her a possible target for his enemies, a potential hostage that could be used to control him. It had not happened, chiefly, he believed, because there were many more visible heroes who posed a far greater threat than he did to the villainous forces that stalked the city. That did not mean, however, that it never would. The working of criminal minds could not always be predicted easily.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects” – Chapter 1 (continued)

With a mild start, Theleth realized that she had arrived at the entry to the bridge. She noticed this chiefly by the fact that she had nearly collided with the hatch. Quickly checking her peripheral vision for anyone who might have noticed, she then relaxed slightly and tapped her security code into the access panel. After a moment, the door slid open with what sounded like a loud sigh. Unconsciously straightening her uniform tunic, she adjusted her posture and entered the bridge.

An older Bajoran (Theleth could tell from the ubiquitous earring that nearly all of his people wore) manning the Tactical station straightened to attention. That would be Lieutenant Commander Ahmar Teklar, she noted. Ahmar, she reminded herself, recalling the preferred Bajoran naming.

“Captain on the bridge.”

The others present paused in their work and turned to face her. Theleth felt the intense scrutiny as they each studied their new Captain. She felt that she should do something to ease the sudden tension wrought from formality, but nothing came to mind that seemed appropriate.

“As you were,” she finally responded, projecting what she hoped was just enough air of confidence.

Crewmembers slowly resumed their duties around her, but she continued to feel their eyes on her as she approached the command chair. She walked slowly, taking in the activities and organization of the bridge. A few days earlier, she had explored holographic representations of the ship in an effort to familiarize herself with its layout before reporting for duty, but even the best photonic recreation could not prepare one for the real thing. In addition to the clean, almost antiseptic odor of the air processors, there was the mixed aromas from the various species that crewed the vessel. She recognized Human . . . Vulcan . . . the distinctive acrid bite of Benzite . . . and was that Bolian?

Reaching the command chair, she rested her hand on the back of it and stared at the main viewscreen. Along the edges of the image was the frame of the drydock, but the way ahead was clear straight to the stars. Theleth turned her head slightly and looked in the direction of what was now her Ready Room. Plenty of time for that later, she decided. With a smooth, practiced gesture, she assumed the command chair. After checking its status displays, she tapped the control for the shipwide intercom.

“All hands,” she said. “This is the Captain. We are scheduled to leave space dock at zero seven hundred hours. Make final preparations for departure.”

There was only a minor surge in the activity around her, which told her that the crew seemed unsurprised by her announcement. Theleth allowed herself a small smile of satisfaction.

“Navigator,” she called to the Bolian ensign at the navigation station. “We’ll need a course to Deep Space Eight.”

The cobalt blue-skinned alien grinned eagerly back at her. “Yes, Captain.”

He agreed with an enthusiasm that seemed to suggest that visiting that particular station was analogous to a vacation on Risa. The Bolian ensign started to turn and then faced Theleth again.

“And may I say what a pleasure it is be serving under your command,” he continued effusively.

Theleth stared back at the eager ensign, not certain whether she should be amused or annoyed. She opted for neither one, attempting graciousness instead.

“Thank you, Ensign,” she said, maintaining eye contact, remembering that Bolians appreciated that.

The ensign grinned back at her.

I’ll get right on that course, Captain,” he announced, turning and, it seemed to Theleth, nearly pouncing on his console in an effort to plot out the desired course.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects” – Chapter 1

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Theleth_blogTheleth walked the short distance from the turbolift to the bridge. Ever since arriving on board, she had mostly ignored the varying reactions to her presence. She acknowledged some with a slight nod, but most she merely let pass. Although her boots moved against the decks of the Avenger, her thoughts still remained elsewhere. She knew that she needed to focus on the here and now, but she had a few more moments before she reached the bridge.

She had left her daughter S’haran with Polath. The [] would make a fine nanny for her daughter during the long months that she would be away. It had been a difficult decision, but this commission was one that she could not afford to pass up, not with the reappearance of the Borg and now with the Cardassians and –unbelievably—the remaining Jem’Hadar joining forces in the Beta quadrant. Starfleet needed seasoned officers with combat experience, and she was one of the few who had survived the initial attacks from both skirmishes.

Through the careful dodging of official communiqués, combined with the successful stalling of persistent officers, she had managed to spend more than six months with her daughter before her decision became imperative. It was a choice at a strategic command position, or possible assignment to one of the deep space stations to monitor one of the borders. That would be an even less suitable environment for an infant. She planned to spend as little time in command of the Avenger as possible, watching for other opportunities closer to the much better protected core systems of the Federation, and requesting reassignment there. Starfleet might need her, but her daughter needed her more—nearly as much as she needed her daughter.

Theleth had not bothered even trying to contact Serek about the matter. She knew from experience the prejudice that hybrid children still experienced on Vulcan and its major colonies. It seemed, well, illogical for such a supposedly enlightened race that embraced the philosophy of the IDIC. The practice of such philosophical tenets did not, apparently, extend to their genetics. It did not help matters that the Vulcans and Andorians had a long-standing mistrust of each other, dating from before even the humans made first contact with either civilization.

Still, Serek had tacitly accepted the child as his, but had done little else except to offer what Theleth considered to be token support. She tried to understand his situation of having to also acknowledge his child borne by Velorar, a true Vulcan, but it did little to ease her frustration and, yes, anger at his seemingly purposeful distance from her and their daughter. He had been cordially formal whenever they spoke, usually relying on their respective ranks to maintain the conversation on a somewhat objective level. Still, he had never rejected her calls, or seemed to be in a rush to end them, except when duty clearly called. Even those would likely become less frequent as his ship headed for a deeper exploration of the Gamma quadrant.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects” – Chapter 2 (continued)

Sandoval’s fingers rested lightly on the surface of the padd.

“You are aware, Lieutenant,” he began, his voice oddly flat, “that your oath of celibacy is part of your permanent record.”

“Yes, sir,” she managed to reply.

With very few exceptions, every Deltan serving in Starfleet had one in their file. That knowledge did little to soothe her growing unease. To her knowledge, she had done nothing wrong—certainly nothing in violation of that signed pledge. She had made it a careful point to not give even the slightest impression that she might be in any way personally involved with any person currently on board the ship. It was not that she had not received numerous covert hints—and several explicit offers—from members of all genders. She had politely rebuffed them all, something both necessary, and yet also extremely difficult, for a member of her race. The unexpected chance at shore leave had come just in time.

Sandoval continued to stare at her. Keena had trouble interpreting his expression. She was tempted to lightly reach out again, but her sense of decorum (and more than a little fear) kept her from doing so.

“I’m not going to attempt to press charges,” he announced. There was an icy edge to his tone. “However,” he continued, lifting the padd without breaking eye contact, “I have authorized your transfer from this vessel.”

He held out the padd to her as if daring her to refuse it. Keena hesitated for only a moment before taking it.

She looked down and saw that it was indeed an authorization for her transfer. All she needed to do was to confirm it to make it official. Part of her wanted to protest, to demand an explanation. She looked up to find Sandoval’s eyes watching her darkly. Swallowing past a growing lump in her throat, she tapped the padd and passed it back to Sandoval.

Sandoval glanced at it and then looked back at Keena.

“We’re scheduled to depart at zero two thirty,” he said. “See that your belongings are removed before then.”

Keena remained standing, stunned by the announcement. Everything she had worked for was coming to an end. But why? She wanted to know—to understand—but something told her that Sandoval had made his decision and that asking for that explanation would not help matters.

“You are dismissed,” Sandoval snapped tightly, “Lieutenant.”

Keena tried to find her voice in order to respond, but her throat and lips refused to work. She managed an acceptable salute before turning quickly and leaving the Ready Room.

She was relieved to find the corridor empty, allowing herself a moment to gather herself. Blinking back tears, she took a deep breath, forcing herself to find a calm center within herself. It took several moments, much longer than usual. She then straightened in her uniform—the uniform that she had earned, she reminded herself—and headed to clear out her quarters.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Star Trek: “Personal Effects” – Chapter 2

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Keena blogKeena walked with only mild trepidation down the corridor. Lonax, the Denobulan Exec, had informed her with surprising stiffness that Captain Sandoval wanted to see her, immediately. There had been an unusual tension about the Denobulan, but Keena had dismissed it as stress. There were a large number of crew rotations in process, so she could understand why the Exec might not be feeling quite his usual cheery self. She had reached out lightly, sensed the roiling emanations associated with mental and emotional stress, and had withdrawn. Once the personnel reassignments were done, and the new crew members properly in place, she fully expected a return to his brightly chipper demeanor.

Reaching the corridor hatch to Sandoval’s Ready Room, she paused and performed a quick check of her uniform: insignias in place, uniform recently cleaned, boots lightly polished. Sandoval was a bit of a stickler for those kinds of details. Unnecessarily so, Keena thought, but he was the Captain and deserved her respect and adherence to whatever minor foibles of protocol that he insisted on observing.

She gave a silent nod of satisfaction and then tapped the keypad to announce her arrival. A soft chime sounded and Keena waited, now feeling bits of nervousness creep in.

“Come.”

Sandoval’s voice had a hard, clipped edge. Keena had rarely encountered him in person. Most of her interactions with him had been strictly one-way, usually by way his voice issuing orders over the ship’s comm system. He had cordially greeted her in person when she had first accepted the posting and come aboard, but even then she had been only one in a line of more than a dozen other new officers joining the crew that day.

Sandoval did not look up from his padd until the door had closed behind her. His eyes seemed to fix her in place.

“Lieutenant.”

Even though he did not say it, there was something in the drop in his tone that amended “Junior Grade”. She had come to accept it, even though almost no one, except members from exceptional formal cultures, used it when addressing her. She had made it, earned an enlisted rank, and been assigned a posting aboard a real starship—life was good.

Keena stood in a posture of relaxed attention, waiting for Sandoval to offer her a chair. Instead, his gaze remained fixed on her. Being Deltan, she was accustomed to males watching her with often undisguised desire, and had learned to recognize and ignore it. This, however, was something completely different. Anger? She tried not to frown. Why? What have I done?

Her mind raced through her assignments during the slightly more than two months that she had been on board. She could think of nothing she had done wrong, nor anyone she might have managed to insult. In fact, she had not even been on the ship for the past four days, having received some unexpected shore leave when the ship had stopped at Deep Space Eight for some minor repairs.

Looking down at the padd in his hand, and then back up at Keena, Sandoval placed the padd flat on the desk. Keena could not help but steal a quick glance at it contents. She visibly froze when she saw her ID picture clearly visible on it: her personnel file.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Triad (continued)

Robyn watched as Shaun sat at the edge of the bed talking quietly with Melinda. She was torn with a growing, burning fury that she knew was unreasonable. If she was right about this—and she had little doubt that she was—then whether it was an accident or committed by intent, it was done, and all three of them would have to deal with the consequences.

Shaun was being calm and reasonable, not at all unusual for him when things got potentially tense. She could see subtle clues in his body language, though, that he was struggling to accept and deal with the situation. Part of her wanted to be angry and just let him sort through it alone, but the more rational parts knew that he would need her support.

It would be easy for her to eavesdrop from where she waited, but she deliberately chose not to, allowing the two of them a nominal sense of privacy in order to talk about something that would change all of their lives. She wondered if she should leave, as neither of them had even looked in her direction for several minutes. When Melinda bent her head toward Shaun and began to cry, that made the decision for her and she left the room.

She stopped in the hallway, just a few paces from the door, finding herself struggling to keep from sobbing. Tears welled in the corners of her eyes and she wiped them quickly away, angry with herself for even beginning to lose control. Drawing in a long, shuddering breath, she made her way to bathroom, closed the door, and allowed herself to cry.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Triad (continued)

Melinda watched Shaun as he approached the bed. She was underneath the sheets, covered with a light blanket. Shaun could tell from her eyes that she had been resting, but not asleep. The color in her cheeks and under her eyes had improved, but she still appeared slightly pale. She did not speak to him as he entered the room and lowered himself to sit on the edge of the bed. Her eyes, though, watched him intently.

Shaun met her gaze evenly, trying to prevent his expression from betraying the tense knot that lived in his stomach. He held out the small box that Robyn had given him. Her gaze fixed on it for a moment and the sudden shift of her eyes told him what he wanted to know. When she did not reach for it, he placed the box on the bed between them, like a tiny barrier meant to somehow separate them.

“Something you want to tell me?”

Melinda worked her lips, as if trying to moisten then before speaking. Her mouth opened and, before she could speak, she began to cry.

Shaun watched for her for what felt like a long time before he reached out and took her hand and then moved closer to her. Melinda pressed her face against his chest, heavy sobs shaking her. Shaun held her close, stroking her hair lightly, letting her release it. Part of him felt awkward, as it always did when he had to deal with a crying woman. A niggling voice in his mind always warned him that he might be being manipulated. He sensed no such deceit here. Melinda seemed genuinely frightened by what she had done.

Her head turned upward and she looked at him with red, shining eyes.

“Are you mad?”

Shaun found himself without answer to her question. The realizations had all come so quickly that he had not really had time to think about how he felt about it. He was definitely feeling some considerable stress over it, but he could not find any true anger within him. Finally, he shook his head slowly.

“No,” he said quietly. “Not mad.”

Melinda’s expression relaxed into a weak, relieved smile. She lowered her head back down to rest on Shaun’s shirt. His arms gathered around her reflexively. As she breathed heavily against him, Shaun wondered just how he did feel about this.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Triad (continued)

Shaun walked into the kitchen, carrying two paper bags filled with groceries. As Robyn had items scattered around on the various countertops, he placed them on the nearby table to start unpacking them.

“Did you take her to the doctor?”

Robyn continued chopping what appeared to be either celery or shallots, shaking her head. “She was feeling a little better.”

“Oh.”

Shaun frowned, but let it go. He knew two things: one was that Melinda could be incredibly stubborn, and two, Robyn could be even more stubborn when the need arose. That Robyn had not pushed the issue told him that Robyn was not yet too concerned. He began opening cabinets to put the groceries away.

“Anything ideas then?” he asked, curious to hear the results of Robyn’s amateur diagnosis.

Without answering him directly, she reached over and placed a small box on the countertop in front of him. Shaun looked down at it, puzzled, and then picked it up. It took him only a moment to realize what it was.

He looked over at Robyn, staring at her with widened eyes. Her mouth was set in a firm line. There was a bright shine in her eyes that spoke of something other than anger, but Shaun could not be certain what. His eyes turned back down to the box in his hand.

An absurd collage of images flashed through his mind: making love to Melinda, a clinical-looking scene of his sperm flowing into her, Melinda clutching him as she climaxed. A knot twisted in his stomach.

His eyes refocused on the box: it was unopened. He looked back up at Robyn.

“Does she know?”

Robyn stared back at him for a long moment. The muscles of her jaw worked before she answered in a flat voice.

“That I bought the test, no.” She took a slow, shallow breath. “That she might be pregnant—you tell me.”

Shaun’s forehead wrinkled slightly as he analyzed the sudden harsh note in Robyn’s voice. He had not known. They had all occasionally discussed having children at some point, but had never reached any kind of agreement, other than that it probably was not the time yet. Apparently, Melinda had decided otherwise.

For a moment, Shaun wondered if someone else might have fathered it. Neither he nor Robyn kept track of Melinda every moment and, he knew, if someone wanted a sexual encounter bad enough, they would find a way to make it happen. His gut though, at least the part of it that was currently tied into tight knots by the news, told him otherwise. He had no doubt what any reasonably accurate paternity test would show.

“Where is she?” Shaun asked. His voice was barely above a whisper.

Robyn’s head nodded toward the hallway. “In the bedroom,” she said. “Resting.”

Shaun and looked in the direction of their bedroom. His lips formed an uncertain line.

“Okay.”

He said nothing more as he finished putting away the groceries, but his mind was far, far from the task.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Triad (continued)

Shaun shuffled from the hallway, still groggy from sleep. He had fallen asleep in the stuffed recliner in the extra room that also functioned as their office and general storage area. He had not planned to, intending to join Robyn and Melinda as soon as he had finished, but the tedium of the work, and the late hour at which he had finally finished, had conspired against him. Closing his dry and tired eyes in an attempt to also quiet his mind before climbing into bed next to their warm bodies, he had awakened only a few minutes earlier, discovering that it was already daylight.

Robyn was fussing about at the stove, cooking something that did not smell like eggs or anything else readily identifiable. He glanced at the clock to verify that it was, in fact, really still the weekend, and then back at Robyn.

She was wearing a one-piece nightshirt that feel just below the curves of her buttocks. Shaun had seen her wore it before to bed, but not recall her ever wearing just it around the apartment. Not that he minded, for she had terrific curves and wonderfully shaped ass with just enough to it to be interesting. He suspected that if she meant over, he would be able to tell what color panties she was wearing.

As if she hearing his silent thoughts, she bent down to place the dish into the oven, revealing that she was, in fact, wearing nothing underneath. Just that brief glimpse at her closely shaved region was enough to provoke a noticeable reaction in him. He started to turn away, to conceal his condition, when Robyn looked toward him and smiled.

“Good morning.”

Shaun gave her a weak smile in return, hoping that she would take it for lingering sleepiness. She placed the utensil she was holding down and approached him, stopping to give him a light kiss. His scalp tingled at the touch of her warm lips. Her eyes were bright as they stared into his and she smiled again. Shaun’s breath caught as he felt her hand touch his slight erection.

“Having a problem?” she asked, her smile turning coy and teasingly provocative.

Shaun swallowed past a growing lump in his throat. Robyn kissed him again, her arms moved up along his back to pull him close. She kissed him deeply, pressing herself against him. Shaun felt the hard length of his erection against her; Robyn shifted slightly, clearly aware and enjoying the sensation.

They parted and, their eyes fixed on one another, Shaun felt Robyn’s fingers return to his now even more apparent erection. She opened her mouth and . . .

The bedroom door slammed open and there was the sounding of bare feet hurrying across the carpet and then a faint thump. The noises that followed were both familiar and unpleasant. Shaun exchanged a long look with Robyn, who frowned tightly.

“She’s been like this almost all night.” She sighed, her expression carrying both annoyance and concern. “I hardly got any sleep.”

Shaun looked toward the bathroom door.

“Stomach flu?”

Robyn gave a small shrug, her lips quirking slightly.

Shaun frowned. He had been so intent on finishing his work before deadline, that he had not noticed anything that had happened around the apartment the night before. He could not even recall if he had stopped to eat dinner.

“I’ll check on her,” he said quietly, and headed toward the hallway.

Several scenarios beyond the somewhat mundane one of the stomach flu played across his thoughts. When he and Robyn had first agreed to share an apartment, they had lived there less than two weeks, barely completely unpacked and still integrating their belongings, when she had come to him with a plea to help Melinda. After countless episodes of alcohol and drug abuse, along with a string of abusive relationships, Robyn decided it was time to either step in or give up. She had chosen the first.

Shaun had agreed that Melinda could stay for a few months, long enough to get herself straightened out, as long as she did a share of the chores in exchange for a share of the rent. She had accepted the terms easily (although he suspected that Robyn had given her little choice) and moved the few belongings that the three of them had been able to retrieve while her now ex-boyfriend (who Shaun had always silently referred to as “The Pimp”, for he suspected there was more than drugs and alcohol going on, although Melinda had never volunteered any information on the subject) was at work.

To Shaun’s surprise, once free of those other influences, she had blossomed into an amazing young woman. Witty and smart, she had also turned out to be a more than competent cook and housekeeper. She started attending classes at the local community college and, perhaps best of all, helped to keep him organized. She also put on a little healthy weight. No longer the drawn, almost painfully skinny figure that she had been, her body had taken on a lean, but graceful shape. It was more athletic in form than Robyn’s, although Shaun did not find it at all unattractive.

Her hair had gone from stringy beige strands to golden waves that seemed almost to shine. Everything about her seemed to reflect the renewed and growing self-confidence that she now seemed to feel.

The “few months” that Shaun had agreed to somehow passed to beyond a year without him quite noticing. It was not that the time had not been without some minor incidents. As far as both he and Robyn could tell, Melinda had remained clean of drugs during the entire time. There a few times, though, when the three of them were drinking, and Melinda had consumed a bit more than he and Robyn had. She seemed to not quite know her limits, and paid for it dearly the next day.

This was Shaun’s main concern as he approached the hall bathroom. Instinctively holding his breath, he knocked on the door jamb lightly and then looked inside.

Melinda knelt before the toilet, her face bent over its bowl. She coughed lightly, a faint, slightly raspy sound. Turning her head, she looked up at Shaun. Her cheeks were pink, but her overall color was slightly off. She looked miserable, but he relaxed when she showed no signs of conspicuous guilt. Her eyes just watched him with silent pleading.

Shaun went to her and knelt beside her. He always felt so awkward in situations like that. All of the things that came to his mind to say seemed either trite or self-evident. Reaching over, he flushed the toilet, and then took a tentative, grateful breath. Lacking any other ideas, he pulled Melinda to him gently, letting her rest his face against his shoulder. He tried to give her a small, comforting smile, foreseeing a day of Seven-Up and saltine crackers ahead for her.

When she seemed steady enough, he waited while she rinsed out her mouth, and then followed her to the kitchen. She sat down heavily at the table, still clearly uncomfortable. Robyn shot Shaun a silent, questioning look. He shook his head slightly and then headed for the refrigerator.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Triad (continued)

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Monday, December 13, 2010

Triad: Chapter 1 (continued)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Triad: Chapter 1

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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

His head jerked upward in the direction of the sound and then he darted for the stairs. As he reached the platform at the second level, he heard it again, coming from the topmost level. He leapt forward until the reached the top floor and then slowed, searching the area for the source of the sound. There were four doorways, but from where he stood he could not peer into them to see what they might contain.

He had started moving toward the room on his right when the noise came again. It seemed to be coming from the second room from his left. He changed direction abruptly, nearly stumbling on the thick carpet, and rushed toward that doorway. Reaching it, he took only a single long stride inside it before coming to a stop.

A woman with long russet-colored hair stood wrapped in a white terrycloth robe. Arms wrapped tight around her chest, she stared wide-eyed at something on the floor before her. Her breathing was shallow and ragged, betraying her terror at whatever she had witnessed. Walter walked to her, peering past her petite form to see what had her so horribly transfixed. What he saw forced a clearly audible gasp from him and he quickly turned his eyes away.

He took a moment to gather himself before he could face the sight again. It had once been the body of a man. Now, it was an eviscerated mound of blood and flesh. Bascombe.

Walter looked toward Vivian, as much to check on her as to be able to turn his gaze away from the grisly sight.

“What happened?” he husked.

He then wondered if he truly wanted to know the truth. Perhaps inspired by the sight of this previously unimaginable brutality, his mind formed an uncharacteristically dark and complete story of what had transpired here tonight.

There had been a quarrel. Perhaps Bascombe had been cheating on her or, for some other unknown reason, had asked her to leave. Driven into the blind fury of a woman scorned, she had lashed out viciously with her claws, raking at him until she had regained her senses, realizing what she had done. She could not call the police, so she had called him . . . because she knew that he would protect her.

The image dissolved from his mind, leaving him feeling somehow violated. He had never before conjured such thoughts about her. When forced to defend herself, she could be cold and efficient, but he had never known her to be brutal—not like this

Studying her for a long moment, he tried to reclaim his thoughts. His mind felt as if it had been scraped raw by the sudden vision. There was no hint of blood on her, not any marks from her claws. Although it was possible that she could have discarded them, along with any soiled garments, Walter knew without doubt that things were as they appeared—as gruesome as they were.

He went to her and she pressed her head against his chest. With a dull ache that welled up from deep inside, he placed his arms around her and held her close. She breathed heavily against his chest. Walter waited for sobs that did not come and, after a short while, she lifted her head and looked up at him. She seemed somewhat calmer, but her eyes retained their hollow, haunted look.

“I went downstairs,” she whispered hoarsely, “to get . . . something.” Her breaths started coming rapidly again. “When I came back . . .” she hesitated, her breath coming in short, rapid bursts. “It was like this.”

She began to turn her head, but then flinched and averted her eyes. Closing them, she leaned her cheek against Walter’s chest. His arms enfolded her once more. He breathed deeply, recognizing the scent of her past the sharp tang of fear. It was then that he noticed that she naked beneath the robe. The realization shot through him like a sharp blade and he forced aside the sequence of mental images that his mind brought forth.

He opened his arms to release her. She seemed surprised, staring up at him with wide dark eyes.

“We need to call someone,” he said. His voice came out cold and flat.

He turned away and headed for the door. There was nothing he could do for what remained of Bascombe. He did not pause as he exited the room. He was nearly to the stairs before he heard the soft footfalls of Vivian behind him. The rhythm of her passage on the soft carpet ushered forth other memories her. They did not help the hollow ache in his stomach.

Walter felt her tug at his arm. He slowed, but did not turn to face her.

“Who?” she asked. There was a clear note of fear in her tone. “Not the police.”

Now he did turn and look at her. He had not intended to call the police. While it was likely that they could begin a credible investigation, he doubted that they possessed the knowledge to classify this as anything more than a particularly gruesome killing. Yet, there remained the question of why she had called him and why she seemed reluctant to have the police involved. There was more happening here, perhaps not directly involved with Bascombe’s murder, but something that Vivian did not want noticed by the local law enforcement agencies.

“Not the police,” he agreed evenly.

He made his way back down the stairs and headed toward the kitchen. As he expected, there was a phone there on the counter. He picked it up and dialed a number that he had not used in a long time. Despite that, he was not surprised that he still remembered it.

Several metallic clicks sounded over the line. The connection was probably tapped, but that would do their listeners little good since the signal would be encoded and scrambled.

“Yes?” a male voice at the other end finally said, although that meant nothing in this age of digital manipulation.

“It’s Walter Eastman,” he said. “We need your help.”

#

Present day (October) . . .

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Red stood next to Walter as Westin knelt and visually examined the shredded remains of Bascombe’s body. Vivian stood behind them, now clothed in a stylish sweatshirt and matching pants. Amaad was checking the rest of the house for signs of entry or other clues as to the identity of the assassin. Walter was not sure when his mind had made the shift from considering this a random killing to it being a carefully calculated murder, but the implications were clear.

Bascombe had been specifically targeted and, whoever his killer was, had waited until Vivian was well clear of the room. There was little doubt that Bascombe had no dearth of enemies, but it seemed strange that any would have waited so long to exact their revenge.

Westin rose and turned toward Red with a grim expression.

“Just like Parnell.”

Red’s only reaction was a tightening along the line of his jaw.

Parnell? Walter searched his memory for a hero with that identity, but could recall no one with that name. He did not know every hero in the world, but his circle of acquaintances intersected broadly with those of Red and Westin. Unless it was someone new or . . .

Walter than made the connection. Parnell had not been among the ranks of the heroes. He had operated on the other side of the law, a minor player among them, but a member of one of the more dangerous and notorious syndicates. And now, apparently, he was dead, murdered in a similar fashion to Bascombe.

Westin and Red exchanged a glance and Red nodded slightly.

“This is the eighth one,” Westin stated coolly. A tight undertone of anger punctuated his words.

Eight? The statement rocked Walter. He did not remember hearing or reading about any mysterious deaths among the hero or villain population, and it was highly unlikely that the media would neglect to cover such a controversial story.

#

Present day . . .

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Walter fought to see through the haze of pain. He knew that he was hurt—badly—but he also felt oddly disconnected from the pain. Dark gray mists clouded his vision and he found that he had trouble focusing his thoughts. Going into shock? he wondered vaguely. The possibility did not concern him as much as it should have.

Darker shadows took shape in the gray clouds.

“Over here!” someone shouted. It was not a voice he recognized.

There was a mixed churning of sounds near his head.

“Oh my god,” someone else gasped out and, for a moment, Walter wondered if they were addressing him. “Do you realize who this is?”

The awe and wonder in the voice were clear.

Walter felt a wide, broad smile form, although he did not know whether it showed.

Maybe there really is still a place in the world for heroes . . .

Monday, November 29, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

November 10, 2002 . . .

Walter stared at the grave marker and lowered his head in silent prayer. It had been two years since he had last seen the withered being that had been Orlovsky; longer than that since the world had last seen the Vermilion Mage. Like so many of his kind, he had succumbed to the very mutation that had given him his extraordinary powers. Only two years, my friend, and already you are all but forgotten.

He did not know why he came here, other than that it was somewhere for him to gather his thoughts when no other place would do. When the presence of people, however few in number they might be, began to overwhelm him, it was a place that offered him solace and peace. In those rare times when Clara could not offer him the insight he needed, he would come to consider the wisdom of those who had come before.

Orlovsky had been older than he was, but not by so many years that life should have been taken from him so early. He had not even been allowed to die in the battle protecting another, but had instead suffered a lingering demise as his body had consumed itself from within. Walter did not dwell on that image though, instead recalling the vibrant, if often taciturn, man who would take time to charm the children with simple tricks.

The wind picked up, threatening to lift the hat from Walter’s head. He hugged his coat more tightly around him and looked toward the sky. The clouds, earlier an almost metallic silver, had now become the color of lead, dark and threatening. The forecast had warned of another storm, pushing ahead of it a deep cold front. He could feel it on his ears. As he had started to grow older, his ears had become surprisingly sensitive to cold. It was rarely a significant discomfort, but on days such as this he longed for a pair of old-fashioned earmuffs, as ridiculous as he might look in them.

“I’m afraid I’m going to have to cut this one short,” he whispered, studying the name engraved on the marker. “But I will return.”

He knew this last part was true, for he had visited here many times before. Feeling the brisk wind wash over his face, he turned and headed for the gates.

“Did you have a good walk?” Clara called to him as he entered the house. She would know where he had gone, but would ask him nothing of it unless he raised the matter first.

“Yes,” he answered her, although it was not entirely the truth. His thoughts remained troubled, and he could not find the insight to understand why.

“The storm’s coming.”

“Yes,” Walter replied again. “And soon.” He paused, trying to remember whether she had also asked him to pick something up while he was out. Searching his memories from earlier, he could not recall such a request.

He hung his jacket on one of the hooks next to the door, stopping to rub his hands together in an effort to warm them before heading toward the kitchen.

Clara was there, dressed in a colorful apron, chopping up something on a white nylon cutting board. She turned her head and smiled at him. Her eyes glowed with her affection for him. “Tea’s just about ready,” she said, and turned back to dicing the vegetables.

Walter turned and saw that a small plate had been placed at his spot at the table. Next to it rested a single fork. The plate contained a single item: one of Clara’s wonderful homemade brownies. “Chocolate therapy”, she called it. Walter had never possessed any particular fondness for chocolate, but these he could not resist. He had even been known to sneak bites from them in the middle of the night if he had risen from some other reason. Clara now made sure that they were well disguised or hidden from his casual searching.

He sat down and had not reached for the fork when she arrived from behind him and placed a steaming cup and saucer down before him. She placed a hand lightly on his shoulder, her gentle touch giving him more comfort than a dozen embrace. Her hand lifted and it felt as though it took a great weight with it. His spirits now much improved, Walter attacked the brownie with renewed enthusiasm.

#

Present day (October) . . .

It took Walter several moments to realize that the sound was not part of his dream. Whatever the dream had been, though, it vanished from his mind as he realized that the noise was the persistent ringing of the telephone. He blinked in the darkness, remembering that he had forgotten to replace the handset back in its stand at his bedside. Pushing aside the covers, he rose, sliding his feet automatically into his slippers, and went in search of the phone.

Telephone calls in the middle of the night always made his heart race. If they were not misdialed numbers from some drunken or distant party, then they almost never brought good news.

He found it quickly. Its glowing display was like a small beacon in the darkness. Reaching for it, he narrowly avoided stubbing several toes against the leg of one of the kitchen chairs. He glanced at the tiny screen, but it gave him no useful information about the caller. Fumbling slightly, he pressed the button to accept the call.

“Hello?” His voice was still hoarse from sleep.

“Walter?” A faint, trembling voice came over the line.

“Yes?”

He tried to place the voice, but the identity of the caller eluded him.

“Help me,” it said, sounding breathless and scared.

His throat tightened and then his eyes grew wide as he recognized the voice. It was one he had not heard in some time.

“Vivian?”

“Something’s happened,” she went on in the same shallow breathlessness, not stopping to acknowledge his question. “Can you come here? I need you to come here.”

Here? Where was “here”? Then he remembered. She had moved in with Bascombe, sharing his house and, Walter supposed, his bed as well.

“I’ll be right there,” he said, trying to remember the location of the house.

It was on the north end of the city, in one of the better, more expensive neighborhoods. At this time of night, he should be able to get there quickly.

“Thank you,” she whispered. “Please hurry.”

Walter was about to ask her whether he should contact the police, or possibly someone else, when the line went silent. He looked down at the display to see that the call had ended.

He dressed quickly, pulling back on the same pants and shirt he had worn earlier that day, chiefly because they prevented any delays from him deciding on what else he should wear instead. He was well down the main boulevard when his brain finally began functioning properly enough for him to wonder why, after all of these months, she had called him—and why now? Certainly there were other, still active, heroes who she could turn to.

Blinking at the bright lights that dotted the road, he nearly missed the turn onto the street that led to the gated community where she and Bascombe lived. He slowed down, not remembering clearly exactly how far down it was, and then had little trouble finding it when he passed the tastefully illuminated sign that advertised its outer boundary.

His arrival disturbed a sleepy-looking guard at the gate.

“Kind of late,” the older man remarked. “Who are you here to see?”

Walter found that he possessed little patience for the man’s observations, but resolved to refrain from anything other than courteous responses to the guard’s inquiries.

“Vivian Parrish,” he replied. “She’s with . . . um, Arthur Bascombe.”

“Is Mr. Bascombe expecting you?”

“No,” Walter answered, allowing just a bit of frustrated snideness leak through. “But Ms. Parrish is.”

The guard looked dubious and, Walter thought, slightly disapproving. Walter fought the urge to roll his eyes. Oh, I’m sure that all of the residents here live pure and faithful lives. From what he had seen, increased wealth was no surer a sign of improved fidelity than anything else. It just meant that the resulting divorces were more expensive.

Walter glanced over to see the guard busying himself with something in the booth. His well-lined face took on a sudden expression of surprise and, a moment later, he returned to the car, handing Walter an elegantly decorated placard.

“Number one-eight-two,” he said, seeming somewhat chastened.

Without saying another word, he returned to the booth and pressed the control that opened the gate. Walter pulled forward and stared at the illuminated house numbers.

The houses were arranged in a serpentine loop that bordered an artificial lake. He realized that he should have turned left when he had entered, because he had nearly made his way back to the entry gate before finding the house. Although there were obvious parking spaces across from the cluster of houses, he pulled directly in front of the house and shut off the engine. The house looked much like all of the other ones in the immediate area, except that there were lights on inside. With a growing sense of foreboding curiosity, he left the car and approached the front door.

He reached up to knock, only to find that it swung open at his touch. He peered inside, wondering if he should have carried something with him for protection.

“Vivian?” he called out carefully, not so loudly that he might alarm someone not expecting him. When there was no answer, he repeated it again, slightly louder. “Vivian?”

He stepped through the open doorway, listening for any signs of movement from further within. The interior, he noted appeared to have multiple levels. Ahead and to his right was a short step down into a living room. On his left was a stairway that appeared to stop at a floor containing a large common space, before continuing upward to another level that he presumed contained the bedrooms.

Faint noises carried to him from further inside. They had a subtle, environmental quality, as if someone had left a large window open at the other end of the house. That would be unusual given the night’s chill of late autumn. Walter crossed the foyer and, about to enter the short hallway that he believed led to the kitchen, heard what sounded like a muffled cry come from an upper level.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

December 20, 2007 . . .

Walter sat on the side of the bed, trying to appear brave. Although it was something he had done many times as a hero, it had not prepared him for this moment.

The doctor had gone, having checked Clara’s vital signs and then conferred quietly with the hospice worker. He had not consulted with Walter, but then he had not needed to. His expression and manner had been communication enough.

Quiet noises came from elsewhere in the house as Ana, their caregiver from the hospice center, busied herself in the kitchen. Dinner? Walter realized it must be, He had lost track of time during the past few days. Clara had slept fitfully and he needed to be there, to remain by her side during her periods of wakefulness, as much for himself as for her.

She seemed to be resting easier now; whatever the doctor had given her had eased the hoarseness of her breathing. The lines on her face had softened slightly and Walter raised a hand to brush away a strand of graying hair that had fallen across her forehead. He withdrew it, not wanting to wake her.

For not the first time in recent days, he fought back tears. It had become more and more difficult, and it took more effort now to swallow the growing lump of anguish that threatened to choke him. He turned his head away for a moment and wiped at his eyes with the back of his hand. It would not do to let Clara see him like this.

She stirred, murmuring softly. It appeared to be a memory, but Walter saw none of the lines of pain return to her face. Her body shifted slightly beneath the blankets, now grown so frail as the final stages of the disease had ravaged her body from within.

Walter sat and stared down at her. She was still beautiful, and he could see within that face the young girl he had first fallen for. He wanted to tell her that the first real snow had fallen, that there had been a group of young carolers the night before . . . that he would miss her so and was not ready to let her go.

Her eyelids fluttered and then opened. For a moment, she seemed to be far away, in another place entirely, before they focused on his face. She smiled. It was soft and gentle and said without words all of the love that she held for him.

Walter managed a smile of his own, although it felt as though his heart was being torn from his body. He said nothing, finding no words to express what he truly wanted to say, what had already been said. As always, she seemed to understand.

“I forgive you,” she whispered. Her voice sounded like paper on the wind. “Now you must forgive yourself.”

Her fingers tightened ever so slightly around his and then eased their fragile grip. She settled back once more against the pillows, closing her eyes. Her breaths came long and slow. And then the next one did not come.

Beside the bed, one of the monitors produced a steady high-pitched tone. Walter heard the sound of Ana’s footsteps moving quickly down the hallway, but he knew it was already too late. All of the anger, fear, and despair that he had kept locked away burst forth and he sobbed, knowing that she was gone.

#

December 20, 2007 . . .

Walter did not know how long he remained there by her side. He was certain that Ana had come in and then left, for the machines had stopped making their myriad sounds. She had said nothing to him—or if she had, he did not remember it. His face was soaked with tears, but he left them there. There was no one left here to see them.

He looked over at Clara’s still, silent form. He could not bear to leave her, and yet he knew that he must. There were things that now needed to be done . . . final things.

He bent forward and placed one last kiss on her forehead, knowing that it would be last one there would ever be, and then rose from the bed. He could never sleep there again; there were too many memories now.

Ana must have heard him rise and was waiting for him in the hallway. She watched him with soft, sympathetic eyes and then embraced him. Walter allowed it and placed his own arms around her, accepting the support she offered. He did not cry, yet he knew there would be many more tears in the days to come. She released him, seeming to know the moment when he was ready. He knew without her speaking that she had attended to everything: signed the proper forms and made the appropriate calls.

Continued on into the living room, he found it awash in color. The Christmas tree was lit, sending bits of flickering light to dance along the walls. Beneath it were a small number of wrapped gifts, most of which would now never be opened. He had so hoped to see her face when she opened small cameo pendant that bore his likeness.

He sat, knowing not what else to do, and stared out toward the street. His eyes saw nothing there in the winter darkness, though. They instead witnessed scenes from the past, times that were now gone to him forever.

There came sounds from the front door. Ana passed him and there were the hushed sounds of calm, but urgent conversation. People passed him, but he did not look away. Ana might have stopped for a moment to stand behind him, but he did not know for certain, and she did not disturb him. A part of his mind recognized that they were heading toward the bedroom and he forced himself to rise.

He made his way numbly to the doorway and watched as they gently, ever so gently, lifted Clara’s body from the bed. It seemed to take them no effort at all, as if whatever life force had dwelled there had taken its weight with it when it had left. Just as gently, they placed her on the gurney and began to cover her with a sheet. One of the men there paused before shrouding her face and looked over to Walter. Walter stared once more at the face of the woman that he had loved more than any other, more than he could ever have imagined, and then nodded slowly. The man looked down and pulled the sheet forward.

Walter stepped out of the way as they made their way through the doorway and back down the hallway. They were slow and careful, cautious not to damage the walls or disturb the body that lay beneath the coverings. Reaching the living room, they paused a moment, and then continued to the front door. Then they were gone.

He turned back to the now-empty room. Ana had begun to remove the linens from the bed. She worked efficiently, her face set in an expression of fixed determination. No doubt she had done this many times before. It took her only moments to gather them all and place them into a waiting basket. Not once did she look over at Walter, although she must have known he was there. There was no way, though, that she could pass through the door without seeing him.

There came new sounds from the front of the house. These drew Ana’s attention and Walter preceded her into the living room. The noise came again in the form of a firm, but respectful knock at the front door. With a frown, Walter opened it to reveal a trio of heavily-clad people. The air before them frosted as they breathed, waiting.

“Walter?”

He looked down at the moment who had spoken his name. It took him a long moment and then recognized her: Osprey. He took in the other faces: Sen and Red. A strange sort of relief flooded through him and he opened the door, gesturing for them to enter. The two men moved past him into the small foyer. Osprey stopped before him, her wide dark eyes bright.

“I’m so sorry, Walter,” she said quietly. She looked down, as if shamed, and followed the others inside.

Walter looked to make certain that there was no one else and then closed the door. He heard sounds in the kitchen. Probably Ana making coffee, he guessed. He motioned for his visitors to enter and sit down. They accepted in silence, after removing their coats and hanging them on the hooks mounted next to the door. Clara’s winter coat still hung there, rosy pink with faux fur that rimmed the cuffs and hood.

The three of them sat down, all of them avoiding the empty chair next to Walter—Clara’s chair. Walter heard Ana pass behind him and saw Red exchange a quick look with her. The glance held some kind of mutual understanding and Walter realized at that moment that Ana was more than she appeared. More than just an incredibly compassionate member of the hospice, she knew other things as well, and had probably been chosen—or volunteered—for precisely that reason. It had all been planned out without his knowledge. Later, maybe, he might feel angry about it, but for now he was grateful for their company.

They sat in silence, each reflecting on their own thoughts. The aroma of brewing coffee wafted in from the kitchen. Walter considered that he should be a good host and prepare to serve it. Sen seemed to sense his thoughts and rose with smooth grace from the couch.

“I’ll take care of it, Walter,” he said softly, and disappeared into the kitchen.

The others remained there with him, waiting. He found that he had nothing to say, and yet there were so many things that needed to be said. Muted bits of conversation carried from the kitchen. Ana and Sen were discussing some matter in hushed tones, probably involving him, Walter decided. He glanced over at Red, who regarded him with quiet sympathy. His eyes moved to Osprey. She sat formally upright, her eyes turned downward, her hands resting in her lap. She appeared genuinely stricken by his loss.

His loss? Clara was dead. “Loss” did not even begin to describe how it felt. A part of him wanted to go over and comfort Osprey, to tell her that it would be all right, that he would be all right. The thing was, he did not know whether it would be the truth. As bad as it felt now, Walter suspected that it would be far worse in the days, weeks, and even months, to come. He could not imagine ever feeling that way again. A part of him could foresee surviving, managing somehow from day to day, but never again feeling completely whole. Maybe that’s just how it is.

Ana and Sen entered, each bearing a small tray. One tray held coffee in four mugs, along with small servings of milk and sugar. There was a fifth cup, which Walter knew contained tea for Ana. In the past few weeks since she had become a part of their lives, he had never seen her have coffee. On the other tray were three plates. Each contained slices of cheese, small cubes of fruit, and assorted nuts.

Walter automatically added sugar to the cup placed before him and stirred it. He then surprised himself by reaching for a wedge of cheese. He ate it, surprised at how hungry he was. Thinking on it, he could not remember when he had eaten last. Throughout the past few days, when he had been reluctant to leave Clara’s side for more than the minimum amount of time necessary to deal with his own vital needs, Ana had periodically brought him plates of food. It might have always been the same, although he doubted, but he had little other memory of them other than he had put it into his mouth, chewed, swallowed, and continued to focus on what was most important to him. He had not noticed what time it had been on most of those occasions, but now he was infinitely grateful to her for it.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

July 9, 1984 . . .

Walter stepped out into the living room, dressed in jeans and a lightweight t-shirt, carrying his large gym bag. It had just grown dark outside. He glanced in the direction of the bedroom. Clara had gone to bed early, planning to read for while. Instead, she had fallen asleep within a few minutes, snoring softly. Walter smiled. It had become a pattern during the past few weeks.

These latest months of her pregnancy had seemed to take their toll on her usual drive. She would still arise in the morning and, other than for a few mumbled complaints about her balance, would go about her daily routine. By early afternoon, though, she often found herself dozing off. She had finally surrendered and made that part of her afternoon schedule. It appeared to help, although Walter had caught her yawning occasionally during dinner, usually when the day’s activities had kept her from that much-needed rest.

He could hardly blame her. She had been eating for two for months, was now carrying around all that extra weight, so it made sense to him that she might need to sleep for two as well. Even with the naps, though, she was often asleep around eight o’clock, leaving Walter to himself for most of the evening. Most nights, he took advantage of this to “spend a night out with the boys”, knowing that the opportunities to do so might be rare once the baby arrived.

A hint of unease tickled at his senses. Frowning slightly, he went quietly back toward the bedroom, the lightly padded carpet muffling his steps. He peered inside. In the reflected light from the hallway, he could see her sleeping peacefully. For a long moment, he just stared. Even swollen with pregnancy, she was still one of the most beautiful things he had ever seen. Smiling, and giving a softly contented sigh, he pulled the door closed, but not all of the way for fear that the sound of it latching might wake her. Promising himself that he would try to be home early, for he did have to go the office in the morning as well, he stepped out into the night, locking the back door behind him.

The night was warm, but the incoming breeze told him that it would cool off later. Tossing the bag onto the back seat of the car, he climbed into the driver’s seat, started the car, and headed off. On night like this, before he had met Clara, he might have gone to one of the nearby hotel bars and lingered over a drink or two. Now, though, in addition to cherishing his time with her (and he still did, which astonished him at times), he had made other commitments as well.

There was not much traffic on the streets, which was not particularly surprising for this hour on a Sunday night. While it might be summer, and most of the children out of school, he knew that a lot of people had extended their Fourth of July holiday to include the two weekdays that had followed it. Tomorrow, though, it would be back to regular routines.

As he made his way toward the parking garage, he idly observed those around him. Every once in a while, he would catch sight of an action or body language that raised his suspicions. He would sometimes follow them, usually either stopping them before they performed the act or, very occasionally, deterring them entirely. He chuckled at the memory of one such event when his presence, even though he had remained in regular clothing, had incited the would-be perpetrator to simply give up and toss his gun into a nearby sewer outlet. Walter had felt mildly sorry for the man, knowing that he had probably paid a fair sum of money in order to get the weapon in the first place.

He found the parking garage to be mostly deserted, as he had expected. There were a handful of cars, a few of which he recognized. He pulled into a spot a few spaces away from another car, a dark blue Japanese-made sedan, and shut off the engine. They deliberately kept their vehicles separated to provide the appearance of random placement, thinking that clustering them together might arouse someone’s suspicions at times when both the garage and its adjacent buildings should be lightly occupied. He retrieved his bag from the back, locked the car, and headed for the elevator.

The car took some time to arrive. Walter knew that it was probably because it had both been at its home floor and that he was being checked to ensure that he should be allowed access to it. It chimed its arrival and the doors parted. The interior was empty, as he expected, and he stepped inside. He pressed the control to close the doors. They slid closed with faint sounds of scraping metal. If he did nothing, they would reopen again in thirty seconds. Although there was a key slot for special access, he ignored it. Instead, he punched five of the number buttons in a specific sequence. After a moment, a bright green light glowed on the panel and the elevator began to descend.

Thomas Raynes, in what Walter considered to be one of his particularly wise and clever moments, had devised this scheme to permit visiting heroes to access the levels of the building—and it removed the need for them carry additional keys which could get lost or stolen. The access code combination was changed often, but at random intervals in order to aid overall security. Walter marveled once again at how often the simplest measures could also be among the most effective.

There were no indications of how far the elevator went as it traveled downward. This was another security feature, Walter knew. If someone did manage to enter the elevator and learn the access code—or manage to coerce someone to enter it—they would gain no knowledge as to exactly where in the building it was taking them.

The elevator glided gently to a halt. The doors remained steadfastly closed and it took Walter a moment to remember that he needed to enter a code here as well. You need to pay attention, dude, he chided himself. You don’t even have the excuse of infant-induced sleep deprivation yet. He quickly punched out the next five-digit code. The green light glowed again and there came a reassuring chime. With a faint hiss, the doors opened.

He walked the short corridor to a pair of large, dark doors. They were at least two feet taller than he was and together looked like they opened into a space wide enough to drive a decent-sized truck through. Walter had never been sure why they were needed, as it was impossible (as far as he knew) to get anything that large down to this level. He was certain, though, that Raynes had a good reason for it. The researcher rarely did anything merely for show if it did not also serve a practical purpose.

Mounted on the wall, next to the right door, was a large flat panel and another keypad. This one was different from the one in the elevator. It was designed to work in conjunction with the panel and accept only specific matching codes. Walter pressed his palm against the panel, careful to make certain that his fingertips also touched it. He waited, feeling the faint warm buzz as the surface of his hand was scanned. There was a faint click and the keypad lit up. He entered an eight-digit code this time. The security system seemed satisfied and he heard the heavier sounds of the main door lock disengaging. Walter opened the door and stepped through.

The room inside was fairly large and, while there was overhead illumination, it was chiefly lit by the glow of the myriad screens inside. It was hexagonal in shape, with a large projection screen mounted on each of the six walls. Each of them displayed a different image. Some were maps of the city; others showed camera views of areas that Walter could not immediately identify.

The center of the room was filled with a small of number desks and several pieces of equipment. A smaller display was present on each one of the desks. To Walter’s left and right, positioned a few feet from those walls, were large tables littered with printouts and smaller bits of equipment. Three figures were gathered near one of these. Two of them were watching one of the large screens while the third one, seated at one of the nearby desks, did something there that modified the image displayed on the screen.

‘Hey, Walter,” one of them acknowledged him without looking away.

Walter was not surprised. He knew that his arrival had been logged and tracked from the moment he had driven down the garage’s adjacent side street.

“What’s going on?” he asked, moving closer to get a better look at the screen.

“Quiet night,” one of the others mumbled. “Everyone seems to be behaving themselves.”

“They’re probably partied out,” the man at the desk said, chuckling.

 

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There was crackling from his earpiece. He ignored it at first as interference and then it came again, louder and more insistent. Walter took several paces away from the crowd, trying to make sense of the signal—if, in fact, there really was one. He pressed his fingers lightly against the side of his mask near his ear; sometimes this helped.

“Walter,” a voice sounded through the sputter of interference. He thought he recognized Osprey. Her voice was steady, but carried a tenor of distress.

Walter tapped the outer shell of the earpiece. “I hear you, Oss,” he said. “Go ahead.”

“Walter,” her voice came again. He could definitely make out the rising anxiety in it even over the wash of interference. “We’re tracking a call from your address. Emergency vehicles are already on their way.”

Walter felt his heart sink. His address? Had something happened to Clara? He glanced around quickly. The other heroes seemed to have matters under control now. He considered letting Westin know that he was leaving, but did not want to lose the time it would take to break into the conversation.

“Thanks, Oss,” he murmured. “I’m heading over.”

“I’ll let the others know,” Osprey said. There was a pause and then her voice crackled over the tiny speaker again. “If you need anything . . .”

Walter’s lips drew into a tight line. If he were ever tempted to take comfort in another woman’s arms, it would be hers. There was something about the petite and delicate woman, a compassion and yet almost maternal fury that he found strangely appealing.

“Thanks, Oss,” he repeated. “I’ll let you know.”

Without another glance at the others, he headed off into the darkness.

When he reached the house, the neighborhood was quiet. A few neighbors were out in their yards, seeming to be doing nothing in particular. He reached what he thought might be curious glances from a few of them, but he had taken the time to change out of his costume, so it could not have been from that. Maybe Osprey made a mistake. Everything looks quiet here.

There were several lights on in the house, which he found mildly puzzling, but not particularly worrisome. Maybe Clara woke up and found me gone? He went straight to the front door, surprised to find it unlocked. Opening the door slowly, he peered into the interior and then stepped inside.

It appeared pretty much as it normally did, but there were several items that had been knocked over and some unusual markings across the carpet. A break-in? But wouldn’t the police still be here?

He moved down the hallway to find the bedroom door ajar. The bedding was tossed aside. There were things here that also looked carelessly tossed aside. He could no longer bear the growing sense of foreboding and headed for the master bathroom.

“Clara?” he called out. His voice was strong, but quavering. “Clara?” he repeated, more loudly this time.

The bathroom was empty. To his relief, everything there appeared normal.

He strode back into the bedroom, heading toward the hallway, when he noticed something on the bed. He walked toward it to see that it was a dark stain. Blood? His increasing anxiety now surged nearly into complete panic. He raced back into the hallway, checked the other bathroom, and the other sections of the house. Empty. The back door was still locked, which meant that whatever had taken place had started with the front of the house.

Walter stood in the middle of the living room, surveying the area for any signs of what might have happened there and where Clara might be. He found himself stymied, at a loss of which of the myriad options to pursue next.

His earpiece buzzed.

“Go ahead,” he murmured automatically.

“Walter,” Osprey’s voice came over the small ear piece. It was clearer here away from the earlier mayhem. “I’ve located her.”

Walter felt a sudden lump form in his throat. A hollow sensation radiated from his stomach.

“She’s been taken to St. Matthews.” She paused and then quickly added, “You’d better get over there.”

The empty sensation in his abdomen expanded. There was something in Osprey’s tone that he could not quite identify over the connection.

“I’m on my way,” he told her and raced for the door.

#

July 10, 1984 . . .

Walter had no lasting memories of the drive between his house and the hospital. He was reasonably certain that he had not been involved in any minor accidents along the way; he was less certain whether or not he might have caused any. By sheer luck, or because of the late hour, he found an available parking space close to the main entrance to Emergency. As soon as he shut off the engine, he darted across the parking lot and through its double doors.

He nearly dashed past the front desk, but then realized that he had no idea where to begin looking for Clara, not to mention that a man running blindly through the corridors was likely to alarm the hospital Security personnel. He was not terribly winded, as the overall distance from the car to the doors had been short, so he was able to find his voice quickly.

The nurse on duty behind the desk, a middle-aged woman with light-colored hair that was just beginning to show signs of graying, seemed prepared for his questions.

“Who are you looking for?”

She smiled at him in a way that Walter assumed was meant to be reassuring, but he took little comfort in it. He would relax once he had found Clara and knew what had happened to her.

“Clara.” He shot out, and then forced himself to slow down. “Monahan.” Walter sighed heavily, annoyed with himself. “Eastman,” he corrected himself. “Clara Eastman.” He swallowed and then blurted out, “I’m her husband.”

The nurse gave him another smile and started checking the entries on a list. After a moment, she flipped a page up and then another one. She began to frown and then looked over one more page. Looking back up at Walter, she asked, “Do you know what time she arrived?”

Walter thought for a moment and then checked his watch. He blinked in momentary surprise when he saw that it read 2:38 AM. Performing some quick mental calculations on how long it probably took him to get home after receiving Osprey’s message, his brief search of the house, and then the drive from there to the hospital.

“I’m not sure,” he finally admitted, realizing that they were too many gaps in his memory to be certain of the times. “Probably around one AM.”

The nurse nodded and checked over the list again. Shaking her head slowly, she turned her attention back to Walter. “Are you certain she was brought to this hospital?”

“Yes,” he replied, forcing himself to remain calm when he really wanted scream at her. “Oss . . . someone told me that they brought her here,” he explained. “A friend,” he added quickly.

The nurse looked over the list, but did not flip the pages this time. Her frown deepened in a way that worried Walter. She gave him a quick, obviously forced smile. “Let me check something.” She picked up the telephone and dialed a short number.

“Yes,” she said after a moment. “Good evening, Mary. Can you check to see if there’s been someone checked in over there by the name of Clara Eastman?” There was a brief pause. “Yes, I have her husband here. I’ll wait.”

She did not meet Walter’s eyes while she waited. Although Walter did not check his watch to know for certain, it felt like they waited for a very long time.

“Oh,” the nurse finally said. Her expression became flat. A moment later, it brightened and she broke out into a relieved laugh. “Thank you, dear! I’ll let him know right away.” She was grinning as she hung up the phone.

“Mr. Eastman,” she said, almost beaming. “Your wife is in maternity.” She pointed toward one of the hallways. “Around the other side of the building, to your left.” She patted his hand lightly. “If you hurry, you just might make it.”

Had she not been smiling when she said, Walter thought it might have otherwise sounded much more foreboding. He nodded his understanding, glanced in the direction she had indicated, and headed off quickly.

“The other side of the building” provided to be quite a bit further than he had expected. He was nearly convinced that he had gone the wrong way, or missed a sign in the dark, when he spied the bright glow from another large door. As he came around the corner of the building, he could read it clearly: Maternity. He resumed his earlier jog, barely pausing at the doors.

“Mr. Eastman?” A nurse in surgical scrubs was already waiting for him.

Walter nodded. The nurse smiled. She was much younger than the one at the reception desk at been. He guessed that she was probably in her late twenties. Although her hair was tucked up underneath a cap, he saw that it seemed to be long and dark, possibly even black.

“This way,” she said, gesturing to the corridor on their left. “Everything is going well,” she went on. “She’s doing fine.”

Fine? If she was fine, then what the hell was she doing in the hospital? He went ahead and gave voice to his concerns.

“Fine?”

The nurse seemed surprised by his question. “Yes,” she replied. Then Walter saw realization dawn on her face. “She’s in labor,” she explained unworriedly, although it did little to calm Walter’s fears. “It looks like your little one decided to make an early appearance.”

Walter focused on following her through the corridor, passing through the same doors as she did, without paying any real attention to where they were. They passed through a room with several chairs and long sofas. There was no one else present. The nurse who had escorted him here conferred with the woman at the window there for a moment, nodded and, still smiling, turned back to Walter.

“The doctor will be out to see you in just a moment.” She squeezed his shoulder gently, smiling cheerfully. “Gloria can help you if you need anything until he shows up,” she said, waving toward the woman behind the window. The woman returned the wave and smiled at Walter. Part of him wished that people would stop smiling at him and just explain what was happening.

Fortunately, he did not have long to wait. An older man partially dressed in surgical scrubs stepped through the inner door. Unlike the nurse, he was not wearing a cap. His hair was a thorough mix of both salt and pepper, with definite signs of thinning at the crown.

“Mr. Eastman?” he asked. His voice was a mild tenor, just the kind to inspire certainty and confidence.

“Yes?” Walter answered, trying not to fidget.

The man gave Walter a reassuring smile. “Mr. Eastman,” he said, offering Walter his hand. “I’m Dr. Pollack.”

Walter frowned. But Clara’s OB is Dr. Tallert . . .

Pollack seemed to read his expression. “Dr. Tallert has been called,” he informed Walter easily. “I’m just here in case things continue to progress before he gets here.” He chuckled warmly. “I’d put fifty-fifty odds on it.” Something chirped shrilly at his waist. He glanced down and laughed. “As I was saying . . .” He tapped a control on the small device and it went silent. “I need to go back in,” he said. “You’re welcome to observe, but it could be all over by the time you’re scrubbed up. Your call, though,” he offered, giving Walter a quick wink. “Gloria can find someone to help you if you decide to.” He nodded toward the woman at the desk. She returned his nod and buzzed him back inside.

Walter stared at the door, wondering whether he really wanted to go inside. He and Clara had discussed it, and she had hinted clearly that she would prefer it if he were present when their child was born. Of course, they had naturally assumed that the entire process would be a bit more organized when it happened. That made him think of her pre-packed suitcase and he now wondered whether it had still been at home or if she had managed to convince the paramedics to pack it along in the ambulance. It was too late to do anything about it now, he knew. If necessary, he could go back home and get it. Later.

He had just summoned up the courage to tell the nurse inside that he wanted go in when he heard someone else come hurrying down the corridor. He recognized Dr. Tallert, although it took him a moment. He was not accustomed to seeing the physician looking slightly disheveled, unshaven, and out of his white lab coat.

“Walter!” Tallert called out, reaching out to shake Walter’s hand. “Congratulations!,” he said. “It looks like the little guy is ready to make his debut.” He stifled a small yawn. “Always in the middle of the night,” he remarked, but clearly amused.

He accepted a clipboard of forms from the duty nurse, read them over quickly, and then scrawled his signature in a few places before handing it back.

“Shall we, Walter?” he offered, gesturing theatrically toward the inner door. “Your lovely and charming wife awaits us.”

Swallowing back a large lump in his throat, Walter followed Tallert through the door. Given a choice, he would have preferred to face down a half dozen well-armed villainous minions instead.

#

July 10, 1984 . . .

Having swapped his street clothes for a set of surgical scrubs and cap, Walter had discovered that they were not nearly as comfortable as he had expected them to be. It also did not help that they appeared to be made from a fabric that seemed so thin that he felt almost naked. What is it about hospitals? he wondered. Is there some rule that says that less clothing is somehow better? He did not voice his opinion, for it seemed not to bother anyone else. He might have thought that perhaps the hospital gave less durable garb to visitors had Tallert not handed him a set from the same stacks from which he had taken his own.

He was in the process of scrubbing his hands as instructed by one of the nurses. Tallert, no doubt well accustomed to it, had finished several minutes before and had already entered the delivery room. Walter examined his hands again. They were bright pink (and even slightly red in places where he might have scrubbed with a little too much enthusiasm) and his fingernails were probably the cleanest they had ever been in his life. Feeling more than a little ridiculous, and every bit like a small child, he held out his hands toward the scrub nurse for inspection. She looked them over, taking care not to touch them with her own, and nodded her approval.

Smiling up at him, she added, “You could get a job here.”

Walter tried not to roll his eyes, but do not miss the sparkle of amusement in hers. She inclined her head toward the door. “Go ahead,” she told him. “I’ll be right there.”

Walter nodded and pushed his way through the door. As the door closed behind him, he stopped, frozen in place. Although he had been told what to expect, had seen it repeatedly in countless movies, television shows, and then again in their birth preparedness classes, Walter found that none of that had prepared him for the reality of it.

The first thing that he noticed were the smells.

 
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