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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

Walter fidgeted with only slight impatience as he waited for Raynes for finish writing his notes. His anticipation of the researcher’s report made it difficult for him to remain still, and yet he did not want to disturb the man. Instead, he looked around the interior of the office, glancing over the spines of the books that filled the shelves and the labels on the narrow boxes that probably contained scientific journals. Most were long and complex titles; some even appeared to be in languages other than English. Walter wondered whether Raynes had actually read them all or had simply collected them there because it was something in his position should do.

Tapping the end of his pen rapidly against his pad, Raynes gazed thoughtfully at the printout. His expression was something like a frown, but also that of a man faced with an intriguing, but potentially enjoyable, mystery. He put the printout aside and looked up at Walter.

“Thank you for coming,” he said, giving him an easy smile. “I imagine this is one of the last places you want to be tonight.”

Walter gave Raynes a weak and grudging smile of his own. It was true, but there were also a lot of places he would not have wanted to be. That the amiable researcher might have some answers for him was more than motivation enough to have returned to the campus, though.

Raynes gave a soft chuckle of understanding and then studied Walter for a long moment. He appeared to be gathering his thoughts, deciding how to explain to Walter the results of his tests. Walter discovered that he was only mildly anxious, finding himself to be more curious than concerned.

Leaning back in his chair, Raynes rested his elbows on the armrests of the chair and raised his hands, enlacing the fingers together so that his forearms formed an inverted “V” over his stomach. He continued to study Walter for a moment before speaking.

“Let me start by telling you that you were right,” he said. “Something did happen to you during that lightning strike—something that altered your body in way that was very difficult to detect.” He paused, musing on some thought. “Okay, perhaps not to detect,” he acknowledged, knowing what had brought Walter to him in the first place, “but certainly to discover.”

Walter waited for researcher to continue. He felt as though he was attending some kind of fundamental physics class, but not understanding a word of what was being said. In truth, Raynes words all made sense; he just did not seem to be actually explaining anything.

“Homo electricus,” Raynes announced casually, as if that explained everything.

Walter shook his head slightly, gesturing with his hands that he did not understand. Raynes chuckled again, a bit more deeply this time.

“An electric eel,” he explained with good-natured patience. “Electrophorus electricus. Or, in your case, an electric man: Homo electricus.”

Walter understood now, but he was not particularly amused. Raynes appeared to sense this and his expression grew more serious.

“It appears, Walter,” he went on, “that your body has adapted in such a way that it can now store electricity. When prompted with the proper stimulus, it can discharge it.”

Although the researcher had lapsed into what sounded like scientific jargon, Walter thought he understood what Raynes had said. It was not a particularly profound conclusion, as he had been living with it for more than two years now. He determined that the most effective way to get the answers he wanted was through direct questions. If he sounded foolish and ignorant, so be it.

“Do you know what caused it?”

“The lightning strike,” Raynes replied, almost playfully.

Walter fixed him with a glare.

Raynes raised his hands defensively in mock surrender. “Not exactly,” he admitted.

Walter sagged in his chair.

The researcher gave him a sympathetic look. “Don’t look so sad,” he said. “It’s just that my equipment isn’t designed for that,” he explained. “I can measure the effects, but not necessarily tell you the cause.” He leaned forward and whispered loudly, “And I really don’t think you want me cutting you open to find out. That’s more Dr. Zan’s department.”

Walter cringed inwardly. Zan was purportedly a highly respected research scientist in the field of adaptive biology. Whatever his reputation might be among his colleagues, he was known among the undergraduate population as “Zan Zero” for his reputation of returning test scores with that value.

Raynes flashed Walter a comforting smile. “Let me make a few calls,” he said. “I’m sure I can arrange something.” His smile dimmed slightly. “But it will have to wait until after the holidays, I’m afraid,” he said.

Breathing a small, almost inaudible sigh, Walter nodded slowly. That was really not much of a surprise, and Raynes had already done far more than he had needed to.

“I do understand, Walter,” Raynes offered gently. “But there’s probably only three of us left on campus right now anyway,” he went on. “You, me, and the poor wretch waiting for us to leave so he can finish emptying the last of the garbage cans.”

Walter managed a meager smile at the small joke. “What do I do until then?”

Raynes’ expression grew thoughtful again. “From what I can tell—from what you’ve told me and this,” he said, tapping the pen on the stack of printouts, “it appears that your body slowly builds up a charge, like a trickle charge on a battery, until it reaches a certain threshold. At that point, the built-up energy has to get out—sometimes violently.” He thrust open his hands, his fingers outstretched, to demonstrate. “I suspect that’s what happened in the hospital lab.”

“Why didn’t it happen here?”

Smiling with a certain air of smugness, Raynes winked at Walter and replied, “Because I’m more careful.”

Evidently, Walter thought, the researcher found himself ceaselessly amusing. Walter kept his opinion to himself.

Raynes stared off in distant thought for several moments. “I’ll bet,” he finally said, his eyes looking over the wall behind Walter at nothing in particular, “that before you would find ways to discharge yourself here and there, probably without even knowing it.”

It was Walter’s turn to become thoughtful. He could recall any specific incidents when that might have happened, but, as Raynes had said, he might not have noticed. At least not until lately, which is what had forced him to finally seek out help.

Raynes’ finger tapped the air. “How long have you been wearing the gloves?”

Walter looked down at his hands. It had been for the last several weeks, after . . . and then his mind reached the same conclusion that Raynes had. The researcher saw the realization come to Walter.

“It’s been even worse since then, hasn’t it?” he asked, although already confident in the answer.

Walter’s eyes widened as he considered it. The effects had been worse since he had started wearing the gloves all of the time. He had thought it had just been force growing stronger. While that might also be true . . . the solution now seemed so simple and obvious.

“By wearing the gloves,” he reasoned aloud, “they insulated me, keeping the charge from getting out, so it built even faster.”

“Exactly,” Raynes agreed, displaying some of the confident pride he might show a prize student.

“So what do I do?”

“For now,” Raynes responded cautiously, “be careful. From what I can tell from these,” he tapped the printouts again, “you can build up a fairly formidable charge.” He nodded slowly, his expression becoming almost grave. “You could hurt someone, I think,” he said, “particularly if they have a pacemaker or something like that.”

Walter thought about that and the upcoming holidays and the endless family gatherings. As far as he knew, the only member of his family who had such a device was his uncle Richard, but he was far away in Oklahoma. Still, getting an unexpected zap from him would probably not do his grandmother or great-aunt Ethel any good either.

“Don’t give up,” Raynes told Walter earnestly. “We’ll figure something out.” He made another one of those gestures with his hands. “Unless you want to spend the rest of your life in some sort of Faraday cage.”

Puzzled lines formed wrinkles on Walter’s forehead. He felt a cold knot in his stomach. Cage? The pictures that his brain conjured up were not at all pleasant. In his mind’s eye, he saw sudden flashes of disreputable carnivals and freaks put on display.

Raynes let out another soft chuckle. Walter found nothing at all amusing in those mental images.

The researcher started to indicate a shape with his hands by holding them up in parallel about ten inches apart. He then shifted them into new positions, and then once more before giving up. Walter had a sense that the researcher now itched for a chalkboard, but he instead just leaned forward to explain.

“It’s an enclosure created out of some kind of conducting material. It’s designed to block out external electric fields,” Raynes explained. “Or, in your case, keep them contained.” His gaze lost focus again and he made quiet, thoughtful sounds.

Walter shifted uncomfortably in the chair. Nothing in the researcher’s explanation had helped to ease his renewed fears.

Raynes’ eyes regained their clarity and, for a moment, he seemed surprised to find Walter there. He gave Walter a quick, mildly embarrassed smile.

“Well,” he said, rising from the chair. “That’s definitely something to think about.”

Walter quickly came to the conclusion that he and Raynes were no longer following the same lines of thought.

Raynes came out from behind the desk. “We will find an answer, Walter,” he affirmed sincerely. He offered his hand to the young man. Walter accepted it after a moment. “Have a happy holiday break.”

Their hands parted and Walter reached for his jacket. It was evident that the meeting, as generally useless as it had been, was over. Raynes’ voice surprised him.

“I understand that you’ll be taking my Advanced Electromagnetics course in the Spring.”

Walter froze. His mind frantically ran through his class schedule for the next term, knowing that Raynes had to be mistaken. He was not ready for Advanced anything in his required science courses. The momentary paralysis left him and he turned to stare somewhat blankly at Raynes.

The researcher met his gaze with the hint of mischievous smile on his lips. After a moment, Walter got it. If they were going to work to solve this problem together, and with any reasonable possibility of not arousing suspicions, then he would need to officially become one of Raynes’ students. The prospect only added to Walter’s growing list of worries, but he saw no better solution. He sighed, not caring whether Raynes saw it or not, and gathered his coat.

“Good night, Walter,” Raynes said with a quiet cheer.

Walter headed for the door.

“And Walter?” Raynes called out evenly.

Walter paused. But, as rude as it might seem, he did not turn around.

“Lose the gloves.”

Walter fought back a quiet laugh. And, with a smile on his lips, he headed down the corridor.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

“No,” he sighed.

Abigail glared at him. “I don’t get it,” she exclaimed tightly. “It’s as if you don’t even care.”

Walter stared back at her. He knew his face was expressionless. I do care, he told himself, although at that moment he had trouble believing it. His emotions felt numbed and distant.

“Abby . . .” He trailed off, unable to find the words—any words—with which to express himself.

She shook her head sharply, blinking away tears. “I knew this wouldn’t be easy,” she said. Her voice came more evenly now. “But this . . .” She waved a hand toward Walter’s face.

His eyes followed her hand as it fluttered back to rest on the arms that crossed her chest. They stayed there for a long moment.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, but not at all certain what he was sorry for. For how he had behaved during the past few months? For the secrets he had kept from her? For himself that she was leaving?

“Are you really?” she asked. The strength of her voice had lowered somewhat, but it still carried a sharp undercurrent of anger.

“I don’t know,” he replied softly.

That it was the first completely clear and honest statement he had made that evening did not seem to bring either comfort or understanding to Abigail.

“I really didn’t want it to end like this,” she told him. She choked back a deep sigh. “Good bye, Walter.”

With that, she turned and left him, quickly lost to view among the other patrons at the restaurant. Walter thought that he saw the door open and imagined that it was her leaving, but he had no way of knowing for certain. He looked down at the table, his attention drawn once more to the now thoroughly wet glass.

About that beer . . .

#

December 8, 1979 . . .

[insert more here]

Thomas Raynes offered his hand, waited patiently for Walter to make up his mind whether or not to respond in kind, and then completely ignored that Walter wore a thin rubber glove over his.

[insert more here]

Walter hesitated. “Um,” he stammered softly. “Dr. Raynes . . .?”

Raynes turned and looked at Walter, his eyes widening slightly with interest. “Yes, Walter?”

Walter’s fingers entwined themselves as if having acquired a mind of their own. “The last time . . .” he paused, uncertain how to explain it. “The equipment got, well, fried.”

Raynes nodded a few times and then chuckled. He patted one of the equipment chassis. “I think we’re equipped to handle that.” He gave Walter a quick, self-assured wink. “Trust me.”

Walter looked at Raynes, wishing that the researcher’s confidence was more contagious. He found no reason, though, not to believe the man.

“Do I need to strip down?” he asked hesitantly, vividly recalling the incident in the hospital basement laboratory.

Raynes gave Walter an amused, genuinely warm smile. “Just down to your shorts should be enough.” He then looked surprised, and then thoughtful. “I might have a clean pair of gym shorts around here,” he said, glancing around, “if you need them.”

It took Walter a moment to realize what Raynes meant. He felt his cheeks flush. “No,” he answered quickly. “I’m fine.”

Raynes nodded, smiled as if at some private joke, and then went back to adjusting the equipment.

Walter removed his clothing slowly, one piece at a time. He still felt conspicuous and vulnerable just standing in his underwear, but much less so than if he had been completely naked as he had been before.

Raynes gestured Walter toward the metal platform without glancing at him. Just as Walter started to place himself onto the thin pad, Raynes waved him away.

“Just a second, just a second,” he said, looking broadly around the chamber.

Walter had no idea what the man might be looking for, but he seemed to think it suddenly important. Finally, he tugged a well-worn blanket from one of the cabinets. It was faded and thin in spots, but Walter did not see any holes in it. Raynes tossed it over the platform so that it covered its frame completely.

“Okay,” Raynes said with clear satisfaction. “Now.” He swept his arm in a semi-theatrical gesture toward the now-covered table.

Walter pulled himself onto the platform. The aged blanket was surprisingly soft against his bare skin, far more than Walter expected the fabric-covered pad would have been. He settled himself down on the table, feeling actually quite comfortable. Raynes approached him, carrying a familiar tangle of monitoring contacts. Walter swallowed back a sudden rise of anxiety.

“These won’t hurt at all,” Raynes said, smiling again at Walter. “But they might tickle a bit.”

Raynes’ touch was deft and quick. Before Walter realized what was happening, the researcher had nearly finished placing the contacts on his legs and was moving upward toward his chest. Walter tensed, finding himself holding his breath, as he waited for the placement of the next electrode contact. Raynes pressed one down on the inside of Walter’s leg, just above the knee. It took nearly all of Walter’s control not to leap from the platform.

The next one was placed just below his rib cage and Walter relaxed almost completely. A faint rush of fury washed through him, though. Maybe Bernat really was a pig, he thought hotly, remembering how the now-dead physician had essentially fondled him. Raynes appeared to sense something, meeting Walter’s eyes for a quick moment, but he said nothing.

Raynes finished attaching the remaining contacts and then performed a quick survey of Walter’s body. Appearing satisfied with what he saw, he returned to the equipment. He made adjustments to several of the controls and then turned back to Walter.

“Ready when you are, Walter,” he announced, giving Walter an inquisitive gaze.

After a moment, Walter nodded his consent. Raynes flashed him a warm, confident smile. “Good man,” he said and faced one of the small consoles.

“You shouldn’t feel a thing,” he said to Walter. “But then I suppose they told you that the last time . . .”

#

December 15, 1979 . . .

Walter turned right from the access road and entered the university grounds. A thin layer of snow covered the large parking lot. Much of it was undisturbed and there were only a small number of cars still remaining. Most of those appeared to have been parked there for most of the day, for nearly all of them had a fine dusting of snow. It was the last day of classes until the Spring term began in January. All of the final exams had been taken the day before. Walter guessed that anyone still remaining were either instructors trying to complete their final grading or students trying to make one last-ditch effort to submit final assignments.

The powdery snow made almost no sound beneath of the wheels of his car as he pulled into one of the spots right outside the research center. As he shut off the engine, he mused on what it might be like to find such a parking space during regular class hours. It often took him as long as ten minutes just to make the hike from his car to paths that led into the campus.

He blinked swirling snow from his eyes and glanced upward. It was only mid-afternoon, but the gray daylight had already started to fade behind the heavy clouds that promised much heavier snowfall to come. It was not so much the impending winter storm that drove his concern, but the probing inquiries he would have to face from his parents, particularly from his father, if he was not home well before dinner. He was hosting his annual holiday party that evening and expected his family not only be present, but be available to perform all of the necessary and menial duties before and after the festivities.

Walter tucked his chin and cheeks deeper into the high, lined collar of his jacket. The icy wind had started to kick up with a biting intensity as well. Like nearly all of his fellow students, he would have preferred to be anywhere but back on campus. Nothing short of an all-out blizzard, however, would have kept him away after receiving Dr. Raynes’ message.

The first door he tried was already locked. That was not all that surprising, he decided, but definitely annoying since it meant that he had to continue around the exterior of the building while his nose and cheeks turned numb.

The door on the south side of the building opened for him after a little effort. Stepping inside, he was relieved to find that there were lights still on and the heaters still seemed to be operating. He took the wide set of stairs to the second floor, knowing from experience that it would get him there much more quickly than waiting for the elevator.

All of the offices that he passed were dark as he made his way down the hallway. He had the sense that they had been abandoned hours earlier as everyone, faculty and students alike, wanted to extend their winter break for as long as possible.

Dr. Raynes’ office was at the end of hallway before it turned to the right. The corridors on each floor of the building, except for the first and top ones, formed a rectangle than was bisected on each side by a broad set of stairs. You could not really get lost, but you might find that you had to follow the corridor nearly all the way around the floor before you found the office or lab you were looking for. That, of course, assumed that you were on the correct floor to begin with, Walter reminded himself, remembering the first time he had tried to find the office of one of the teaching assistants.

As Walter neared Raynes’ office, he was pleased to see the bright white-yellow glow of the overhead florescent lights. The door was slightly ajar, which further reassured him that the research professor was still there. He stopped just outside the office and rapped lightly on the doorframe.

“Come in, Walter,” Raynes’ voice sounded from within. “Come in.”

Walter did not bother asking how Raynes had known it was him. It was unlikely that the researcher was anticipating many other visitors that late in the afternoon on that particular day.

Raynes was seated behind his desk. There were small stacks of printouts piled neatly on its surface. He was scribbling notes onto a yellow pad while studying something on one of the printout sheets. Looking up momentarily, he flashed Walter a quick smile and motioned for him to sit down. Walter unfastened his jacket, hung it over the back of the other empty chair, and then sat down.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

The door slid closed once again and the elevator began to rise.

Walter watched the progression of the numbers, wondering where they would stop. He felt a tight knot in his stomach as they passed the floor of his room and continued upward. After reaching the topmost level, the elevator slowed and stopped, emitting a chime with a different pitch than Walter had heard before. One of the guards moved forward and passed his badge over the security access panel. There was an answering chirp and the doors opened.

The woman exited and then stopped in the doorway.

“Bring him,” she commanded the guard to her left, waving toward Dr. Robert. Her head turned to face the other security guard. “Return him to his room.” Her eyes turned toward Walter, narrowing as they appraised him. “See that he’s released.”

Walter thought he heard a veiled threat in her tone, but decided that he might also be imagining it. So far, she had done nothing that could truly be considered sinister evil. Nothing, that is, except behave like a cold, arrogant witch.

“Yes, ma’am,” the guard responded smartly. She quickly stepped back into the elevator, effectively blocking Walter’s exit. Her eyes played over Walter, as if daring him to attempt something rash. Walter broke eye contact almost immediately, although he could not see how he was much of a threat dressed only in his bathrobe and clutching his pajamas.

They descended back to his floor. Neither of them said a word, but Walter was certain that she kept casting furtive, watchful glances in his direction. A part of his ego took issue that her attention, in some ways, held even less interest than had Bernat’s.

The guard escorted him back to his room. Before opening the room for him, however, she gave him a long, hard stare. The silent warning it carried was apparent to Walter. A silent anger burned at the pit of his stomach, but he knew that he would say nothing. Seeming to sense his understanding, she opened the door.

His parents and Abigail were waiting inside. His suitcase was closed on the bed, apparently packed and ready. The three of them reacted with varying degrees of surprise.

“Where’s the wheelchair?” his father asked, somewhat sternly.

His mother peered past him, as if hoping to spot it out in the corridor. Walter was uncomfortably aware of the security guard at his back.

“I’m fine,” he said, deciding on the safest and most neutral-sounding statement.

His father looked slightly dubious and looked over at the security guard. Walter did not see how the guard reacted, but felt considerable relief when he heard the door close behind him.

“What happened?” Abigail asked. There was deep and genuine concern in her eyes.

Walter began to smile at her and started to reach for her hands. He saw then that he still carried his pajamas and then remembered that only his bathrobe separated her from his naked body. It was not the situation as he would have envisioned it—and certainly not with his parents present.

“They had some trouble with the equipment,” he explained in what he hoped was a casual, slightly annoyed, tone. His eyes found the open bathroom door. “Excuse me just a minute.”

He dashed inside, although trying not to make it look like he was in too much of a rush, and closed the door. Once inside, he took a long, slow breath. He then fumbled in the dark for the light switch, found it, and started to dress again in his pajamas. He found that his hands shook slightly as he pulled them over his legs. I guess I’m more rattled than I thought.

After he was done, and the robe fastened once more about his waist, he took a moment to splash some water on his face. It seemed to help steady him. Still, he allowed himself several more deep breaths before opening the door. He knew that he could not delay too long before someone got worried and came in after him.

Most of the surprise was gone from their faces when he came out. His father still surveyed him with a critical eye, but any remark he was going to make was forgotten when there was a knock on the door.

“Yes,” his mother said evenly. “Come in.”

The door opened, admitting an orderly with a wheelchair. He was dark-skinned and Walter wondered how much English he spoke, much less understood.

His accent was heavy, but understandable. It carried hints of the Caribbean islands. “Are you ready to go?”

Walter nodded. You have no idea . . .

#

June 10, 1978 . . .

Abigail was late. Walter found it only mildly surprising, and not entirely unexpected. Although it had been the last day of classes until Fall—not to mention a brutal week of final exams—Abigail had been unable to convince her employer to give her the afternoon off, even with a week’s advance notice. While the woman who ran the flower shop where Abigail worked was generally fair and reasonable about Abigail’s class schedule, her staunch refusal to hire any additional help made it difficult for Abigail to leave early or take much additional time off. Walter had ceased to grouse about it, for it only made Abigail irritable to discuss it, and there was really nothing he could say or do that would alter the situation.

He toyed with the glass of water, eyeing the condensation forming on its sides, and wondered if he should wander over to the bar and see whether he could manage to order a beer. Truthfully, he did not care for the taste of it all that much (although Abigail seemed to, the few times he had seen her sample some), it was the thrill of the challenge to see whether he could actually obtain one. He had decided against it when someone he sensed someone arrive at the table. At first, he thought it was the increasingly annoyed (and annoying) waiter returning again to see if he was ready to order.

Walter looked up instead to find Abigail standing there. She stared down at him, making no move to sit down. Her eyes seemed pink and slightly puffy. The muscles along her jaw trembled. Something in her taut expression told Walter that something was very, very wrong.

“What is it, Abby?” he asked softly, reaching toward her.

She backed away from him, almost flinching.

What the hell?

Walter frowned, truly puzzled now. “What’s going on?”

Abigail continued to stare back at him. Her arms were wrapped protectively across her stomach, as if she were trying to hold inside whatever was causing her such pain. Walter tried to think of something else to say, but his so far questions had brought no answers. He watched her swallow, seeming to gather her courage.

“I’m leaving,” she announced. Her words sounded choked and just barely audible enough for him to hear.

The wrinkles on Walter’s forehead deepened. Leaving? Where? And then his stomach sank as if suddenly filled with icy lead. Are we breaking up?

“Oh.”

It was all he could think of to say. If she was ending their relationship, he wanted her to say it outright, not make him guess until he got it right. Because it wouldn’t be all right. It would be . . .

“That’s it?” She asked, clearly growing angry with him. “That’s all you can say? Just ‘oh’?”

He could not find it within himself to feel the same ire. In fact, he was having trouble trying to feel anything—anything but a cold and hollow sense of loss.

“I guess I’d like to know why,” he offered. I don’t ‘guess’, he thought with a small glow of irritation. I do want to know.

“I’m going to Amherst,” she said evenly, as if that explained everything.

They had discussed it before. She had been offered a scholarship there, but had been unable to afford the move. More than once, they had considered the solution of seeing if they would accept her there for graduate school instead and they would both go as soon as they had both received their degrees. As far as he could remember, nothing had ever been decided as that milestone was still a few years away. What had changed?

“Now?” he managed to ask.

She nodded slowly, her mouth working before they formed her next words. “For Fall,” she said. “But I’m leaving next week to find housing. And a job.”

Walter just stared at her until his eyes grew dry. Abigail studied him in return and then, unable to bear his unblinking scrutiny, looked away.

“Just like that,” he whispered, feeling a small hint of anger.

Abigail looked at him once more. She seemed ready to say something and then changed her mind. Her posture changed in a way as if to indicate that she had accepted the situation and was ready to face it. Walter wished that he could say the same.

“I need to get away,” she said. Her voice was firm, but Walter heard a note of regret.

“From me?” he asked quietly, surprised at the sharp sarcasm he heard there.

“From you,” Abigail agreed. “From us.” Her eyes flashed around the interior of the restaurant. “From here.”

Walter continued to stare at her, not understanding. What had he done? Or had not done? Was it because they had never finished what they had started—what she had started—back during that picnic before the accident? There had never seemed to be the right time since then.

It was then that he felt a renewed flush of anger. She had apparently been thinking about for this for a long time without telling him. He could not imagine her just deciding to pack up and go on a moment’s notice. To be leaving next week, she must have been . . . he stopped, his teeth now grinding tightly together. Was she going there to be with someone else?

“I see,” he said tightly.

Abigail’s eyes flashed. “Do you?” she challenged him hotly.

Walter knew immediately that his last guess had been wrong. He saw no hint of guilt in her expression, just a growing fury.

“Do you?” she repeated, demanding, her voice rising. Her eyes narrowed as she stared at him. “I don’t think you do.”

He said nothing, for he could think of nothing to say.

“I just don’t know who you are any more, Walter,” she went on.

Her statement struck him as if he had been slapped. What does she mean? I haven’t . . . And then he realized that it was true. Ever since the incident at the St. Patrick’s Day bash, he had been afraid to touch her, terrified that he might hurt her . . . or worse. Just as there were things that she had not said to him, he was just as responsible for the same omissions.

He wanted to apologize, to say that he was sorry, but something told him that was the last thing she wanted to hear. Her resentment and frustration toward him had been building for some time, and he had chosen to ignore it. The signs had surely been there—had he cared to take notice of them. He could think of many things he wanted to say now: of how much he cared for her, that he did not want her to go, that he could . . . could what? Go back to how they had been before? It was not possible. He had changed—been changed.

Mentally, he sagged with defeat. “You’re right,” he said.

“And that’s supposed to just make it all okay?” she snapped back.

Walter tried not to look around. He was reasonably certain that they were drawing the attention of others around them.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

He was absolutely certain that Bernat’s handling had been entirely clinical; his response, however, was not. If the olive-skinned physician noticed, he gave no indication. He was probably accustomed to it in his line of work, Walter thought—hoped, and thought it perfectly normal. This rationalization, though, did not prevent Walter’s cheeks from growing warm.

After he had placed all of the contacts, Bernat confirmed the placement and contact of a few of them (none of them, Walter noted gratefully, near his groin) and then stepped away from the platform to join Dr. Robert. They exchanged some quiet words and Dr. Robert motioned toward one of the consoles. Bernat went over and began to adjust the one Dr. Robert had indicated.

Walter quickly grew bored watching their activities, since he had very little idea what was going on or what was gong to follow. The continued delay did very little to ease his remaining disquiet, even as he tried to settle back on the padding and just wait.

The doctors completed their preparations a few minutes later. Dr. Robert approached Walter while Bernat remained near the equipment.

“Okay,” he told Walter, “I think we’re ready to begin.” His eyes swept over the sea of contacts covering Walter’s body in a way that made Walter decidedly uncomfortable. They returned to Walter’s face. “You shouldn’t feel anything at all,” he said. “We’re just measuring the electrical impulses in your body,” he explained. “Something like a body-wide EEG,” he added, as if that clarified everything. He performed one more cursory glance over Walter’s body and then moved back toward the equipment.

Walter remembered hearing about EEG’s, but he had never subjected to one. As far, we knew, most people were not. It was the stuff of television medical shows, not something the average person encountered during their visits to their local family doctor.

“Do I need to lay absolutely still or anything?” he asked, annoyed with the small quaver in his voice.

Dr. Robert’s expression formed an easy, light-hearted smile. “You don’t keep absolutely still or rigid,” he replied. “In fact, it might even be better if you didn’t,” he went on, without explaining why. “But try not to thrash around too much,” he said, giving Walter a quick wink. “You might dislodge some of the contacts.”

Walter nodded his understanding and settled back again, trying to relax.

Dr. Robert patted his shoulder gently and then walked back over to the collection of apparatus. He nodded toward Bernat, said something that Walter could not hear, and then pressed a button on one of the consoles. Walter tensed, although he willed himself not to, and waited for something to happen.

After a moment, he realized that Dr. Robert had been right: he felt nothing other than for the mildly irritating stickiness of the electrode pads on his skin. He looked over and saw graphs move on the small screens mounted into some of the equipment. Both Dr. Robert and Bernat watched them all intently, speaking quietly between themselves. Neither man appeared to be particularly anxious; even Bernat seemed to have relaxed somewhat.

Walter began to feel a slight tingling at some of the points of contact along his body. At first, he dismissed it as a manifestation of his own imagination and boredom at being able to do nothing other than lay there quietly. The sensation continued, though, seeming to spread to more and more of the contacts. It was not exactly uncomfortable, but definitely noticeable. He was about to call out when he noticed that both Dr. Robert and Bernat appeared agitated, deeply concerned over something that the equipment was showing them. Dr. Robert turned toward Walter just as the prickly sensation suddenly surged through him.

Walter felt his body convulse, but the erratic movements of his body felt distant, remote. At the same time, he felt an overwhelming sense of power, of an untapped force held captive within his body. The lights in the chamber appeared to dim. The pitch of the sounds coming from the various pieces of equipment oscillated in a jumble of discordant noise. Lights flickered and flashed. Walter felt as he would explode from the pent-up energies kept within him. His body formed a high, violent arch on the platform. He saw and heard and felt as streamers of energy crackled outward from it, connecting to the equipment and even to the two doctors. The two men trembled, trapped in the unrelenting grip of the freed energies.

#

September 7, 1977 . . .

It was over in an instant. The room went dark and Walter felt his own body again. A crash echoed from nearby, following by smaller sounds of other items falling to the floor. There was the acrid odor of melted plastic and burnt electrical components. Walter suspected that the sound had been one of physicians collapsing, impacting one or more pieces of equipment on his way down. The tingling sensation was gone from his body, replaced by . . . something else. It was like that feeling that it got right before a thunderstorm, with the tiny hairs on his arms and back of his neck standing on end. His skin also felt dry and seemed to itch almost everywhere.

For several seconds, he seemed unable to breathe. His throat felt constricted, the muscles of his chest paralyzed. The moment passed and he was able to draw in a deep, rejuvenating breath.

The interior of the chamber remained dark. Walter waited for his eyes to adjust to it, but the room was sealed, with no reflected ambient light at all for his vision to take advantage of. Something stirred on the floor nearby. Walter assumed that it was one of the doctors trying to rise. His guess was confirmed when he heard a male voice muttering something not quite intelligible.

“Walter?” a voice called out from the darkness. It was Dr. Robert.

“Yes,” Walter answered and then added, “I’m fine.”

“Okay,” the physician responded. “I’m going to try to find a light.”

Walter followed the shuffling sounds of movement around the chamber, stopping occasionally as the doctor encountered some unseen obstacle in the dark. Sometime later, a sudden lance of brilliant light pierced the darkness. Walter blinked, momentarily blinded.

The emergency cast a bright, but narrow beam through the chamber. Its light created knife-edged shadows, revealing items in the room in sharp relief. Dr. Robert carried it closer, revealing Bernat still lying crumpled on the floor. Walter thought he saw blood trailing from the physician’s mouth, but could not be certain. Dr. Robert checked on the other man’s condition, paused, and then rose.

“We need to get out of here,” he said. “Can you walk?”

Walter shifted his legs experimentally: everything seemed to be working. “I think so.” He started to rise and felt the pull from the tangle of contact leads still connecting him to the monitoring systems. Ignoring the momentary stings, he pulled them away in handfuls until he thought he was free of them all. He felt a few additional ones snap away as he eased his feet to floor. Its surface was cold against the bare soles of his feet. Dr. Robert gestured with the flashlight’s beam in the direction of the door. Walter took a step and then turned back, grabbing the pile of his clothing where they were stacked on a nearby chair. Like hell was he going to be found completely naked by anyone else.

He and Dr. Robert made their way carefully to the door. It was sealed tight. The flashlight beam played around perimeter of the doorway as Dr. Robert searched for a way to open it. Walter took the moment to pull on his bathrobe and slippers. Doing so made him feel both warmer and a bit more assured.

Dr. Robert tapped him on the shoulder and pointed toward a lever mounted next to the door. He gestured for Walter to place his hands on one end of it and turn it counterclockwise. Walter did not know why Dr. Robert did not just speak out loud, but mentally shrugged the question off. He placed his hands where instructed, waiting while Dr. Robert gripped the other end. Dr. Robert nodded three distinct times and then began to pull on the lever. Walter followed his example, applying pressure in the direction indicated, and the lever slowly began to shift.

Walter could hear a mechanism inside the door in motion. The lever moved more easily as it went. After several moments of effort, there came the distinct sound of the locking system disengaging. Dr. Robert pushed on the door and Walter heard the now-familiar hiss of the door seals separating.

The power in the corridor outside the chamber appeared to be out as well, but Walter could see lights operating further away, in the direction of the elevator if he remembered correctly. Dr. Robert led him forward, toward the illuminated sections of the floor.

#

September 7, 1977 . . .

Small red and amber lights mounted at intervals along the corridor twirled their colors against the walls. As they approached the elevator, Walter could hear the sounds of distant alarms. One of the access doors to their left banged open. Through it burst two security guards, hands ready on their firearms, and two figures encased in hazmat gear.

Dr. Robert’s eyes made contact with one of the guards, but did not entirely focus on him. “Bernat is still back there. Needs help.” Something in the physician’s flat tone told Walter that it was too late for Bernat.

The guards hesitated and one of the hazmat-suited figured leaned forward slightly. Dr. Robert shook his head slowly, as if able to interpret their conversation.

“No,” he said dully. “There’s nothing to contain. Just need to restore power.”

The security guard waited and then, when the hooded figure nodded to him, spoke into the handheld receiver mounted on his shoulder, calling for an emergency medical response team.

The elevator chimed a moment later. That was fast, Walter thought.

The doors slid open to reveal two figures in business suits. It took Walter a moment to realize that one of them was a woman.

“What the hell happened down here?” the woman in the severely tailored suit snapped.

“I’m not sure,” Dr. Robert replied, sounding still dazed.

The woman stared at him with a narrow, piercing stare. She seemed to decide that she would get nothing further from him at that moment that might be useful and turned away. Taking another step into the corridor, she seemed to become suddenly aware of Walter’s presence. She regarded him with barely-disguised disdain. Walter felt like a flawed and unwelcome specimen under her brief gaze. Behind her, the equally well-attired man said nothing, but surveyed the scene with a critical, hawkish eye.

“Bring him,” she announced to the two guards, indicating Dr. Robert. She turned toward her companion. “I want a full report—immediately.” Walter could tell that she was accustomed to being obeyed.

The man did not even flinch. “Of course,” he responded coolly, and stepped out into the corridor.

The two guards flanked Dr. Robert escorted him into the elevator. He offered no resistance. To Walter, it did not even seem that he was aware of their presence. The woman preceded them inside. Walter remained in the corridor, having been given no instructions at all. As the elevator doors began to slide closed, he made a decision and moved quickly inside. A slight rise of the woman’s eyebrows was the only indication that she had noticed.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

Walter rose from the well-worn chair and went to the small kitchen. He glanced at the clock. It was early afternoon, too early for Scotch, even though he truly wanted one. It was simply one of the rules that he lived by: other than perhaps a cocktail over lunch, gentlemen did not indulge in hard drinking before the evening hours. And it was more than simply adhering to a personal code of conduct. He had seen too many comrades and heroes—on both sides of that thin gray line—descend into alcohol-fueled disrepute and oblivion.

He settled for tea, quietly pleased to find that he still had a small supply of real English tea. Although there were many teas labeled as “English” here in the States, very few were authentically English. Walter had found very few shops that carried the authentic blends, and they tended to cost a bit more than their Americanized counterparts (sometimes as much as a bottle of decent Scotch!), so he used them sparingly.

He filled the kettle with water, placed it on the stove, and waited for it to boil. He knew that it could be done more quickly in the microwave oven—three to four minutes and, ping, hot water—but it never tasted the same to him as when he allowed the water to come to a proper boil. Maybe it was the anticipation, he mused with a faint smile.

While he waited, he busied himself with finding a proper teacup, taking the milk out of the refrigerator (noting that he would be needing to venture out to the market in the next day or so), and then pondered the question of whether he wanted to sweeten it with sugar or honey. He had settled on the first when he heard the electronic chirp of the telephone. For a moment, he did not recognize the sound. His mind, suffused with pleasant memories of the past, had expected a much different sound.

The handset was missing from its stand on the kitchen counter, meaning that he must have taken it with him into the living room. It repeated its insistent chirp and, after checking the progress of the tea kettle, Walter went looking for it.

He found it where he expected to, standing upright on the table beside his chair. It was halfway through its third cycle of ringing tones when he silenced it. The small display on its front told him nothing: Unknown Caller. Probably some charitable cause asking for money. As far as he could remember, all of his bills were paid.

No one spoke when he placed the handset against his ear.

“Hello?” he said, although it was as much a statement as a question.

“Walter,” the voice at the other end said. Although he could not be certain, Walter thought it sounded pleased.

The connection seemed poor, as there was a lot of noise on the line. Walter had many experiences with dropped and garbled calls from mobile callers, but this seemed different. It did not sound like the caller was in a place with a lot of background noise, but more like they were calling from a pay phone or somewhere with a poorly maintained telephone service.

“Are you there, Walt?” the voice asked.

Through the hisses of transmission static, Walter could not identify the voice. Recognition nagged at the back of his mind, but he figured it was trying to sort through the possibilities. Actually, he realized, there could not be that many—at least not that many who would contact him by telephone. Most of his contact with previous colleagues—what little there was of it—came chiefly through e-mail or the occasional personal encounter.

“Yes,” he answered, still somewhat tentatively.

“Can we meet somewhere? Soon?”

Walter frowned. Meet? Who . . . ? His mind finally presented him with its unverified identification of the caller.

“Red?”

Walter thought he heard a faint chuckle through the hissing static on the line. “Indeed it is,” the voice agreed. It resumed its more somber tone. “Can you meet me somewhere?”

Walter considered the question for a moment. He could hear the whistling notes of the tea kettle building toward a crescendo.

“Would you like to come here?”

There was a pause while Red seemed to deliberate on the question. “Sure,” he finally answered. “That would be okay. You still at the same place?”

“Yep,” Walter replied after thinking for a moment whether it was true. It had been a long time since he had seen Red in person outside of some event at a television studio. To be certain, he recited his address for Red.

“Thanks, Walt,” Red’s voice said. “I’ll see you shortly.”

The line static faded and the line went silent. Walter glanced at the handset’s display: Call Ended.

Shortly? Then Red must be somewhere nearby, Walter realized.

The day had just started to become even more interesting.

#

September 7, 1977 . . .

The two doctors, whose names Walter could never remember, conferred quietly over items on Walter’s chart. One, he recalled, had the last name “Bernat” (pronounced “bear-nay”, something like the French sauce Walter had often thought with a suppressed smirk). He was a somewhat stout man, but with a sturdy plumpness that gave the hint that he did not possess an entirely overweight physique. Other than for his olive-colored complexion that spoke of his Mediterranean, his most distinguishing feature was a broad, almost bushy mustache. He spoke with an accent that was neither French nor Middle Eastern, and Walter had failed to identify it so far.

The first name of the other physician was “Robert”. Whatever his last name was, Walter had never caught it. Bernat always referred to him as “Robert” and, if he had ever been paged over the speaker system, Walter had not known it was him. While each of the two doctors seemed mildly puzzled in their own way, neither appeared to be particularly concerned by the results they were seeing. Nearby, a young nurse, who looked not much older than Walter, fidgeted near the bed. She was probably waiting to hear whether to tuck him in for another day’s stay or to prepare him for release. For both of them, he thought, the suspense was unnerving.

Walter watched as the two physicians seemed to come to an agreement. Dr. “Robert” nodded and then approached the bed.

“Walter,” he said, putting on what Walter presumed was intended to be a comforting and confident smile (although it did not seem to reflect either of those two traits). “I don’t think there’s much more we can do for you here.” He tapped the chart in his hand. “You’re improving nicely, getting up and around, and,” he added with a slightly wider smile that felt even less genuine, “I’d imagine you’d prefer to get back to having home cooking than what passes for food here.”

Walter had little problem agreeing with the last statement. It was not that the food here at the hospital was terrible; it just tended to be bland and therefore not particularly appetizing.

“We’d like to run one last test,” he went on, exchanging a momentary glance with Bernat, “and then release you.”

Walter almost sighed. Another test? Over the past few days, he had been poked, prodded, stuck, measured, weighed, and subjected to more types of personal indignities than he could have ever imagined. He remembered how his grandmother complained over meals about how her doctors treated her. Walter knew he would have far more sympathy for her tales in the future.

“That sound okay to you?” Dr. Robert concluded.

Walter looked toward Abigail, not that there was really anything to discuss about the matter. She gave him a warm, comforting smile and squeezed his hand gently. Near the door, his parents looked visibly relieved.

Walter gave Dr. Robert a nod. The physician smiled back and patted Walter on the leg.

“Good, good,” he said, motioning toward the nurse. “It shouldn’t take long.” He murmured something to her in low tones. She nodded her understanding throughout and then headed out of the room.

“Mr. and Mrs. Eastman,” the doctor addressed Walter’s parents. “If you’ll sign this release, we’ll run these last set of tests, and then you should be free to take him home.”

Walter’s father took the clipboard that was handed to him; his mother stared down at it as if it carried something loathsome. He could not blame her. During the past several days, they had probably signed more of such forms than they had ever imagined they would see in their worst nightmares. His father, though, read over the form and, his lips tight with determination, signed the bottom. With an expression of granite stoicism, he handed it back to Dr. Robert. The physician checked it and then looked up as the nurse returned.

She paused at the door pushing a wheelchair, unable to enter because of the position of Walter’s parents. Walter eyed it in surprise. He had assumed that, like almost all of the other tests, they would conduct these final ones here in his room. Walter felt Abigail’s hand tighten its hold on his.

Dr. Robert seemed to sense everyone’s discomfort. “It’s quite all right,” he said, in a calm, not-quite-soothing, tone. “The equipment we need is located in another section of the hospital.” He gave them all what he probably thought would be interpreted as a self-deprecating smile. “It’s still too large to move it around the building.”

Everyone else in the room seemed to accept the explanation, relaxing slightly. Something in the man’s words, though, bothered him: still too large? For some reason, this suggested to Walter that whatever this equipment was, it was apparently a very new design or even potentially experimental. He wished now that he could read the form that his father had signed to see if it gave any hint of what was going to be done to him and how.

The wheels on the chair squeaked and his parents stepped guiltily aside, allowing the nurse to enter with it. She pushed it to a position beside the bed and waited. Dr. Robert nodded to her and then motioned for Walter to climb into it.

Walter eased himself off the bed and then lowered himself into the waiting chair. He still felt conspicuous and nearly naked dressed only in pajamas and a bathrobe, and waited while the nurse dutifully tucked a light blanket onto his lap so that it draped down over his legs.

“We’ll be back shortly,” Dr. Robert announced to the room. “You can start packing his things for release.” He gestured for the nurse take Walter out of the room. Dr. Robert followed, trailed by Bernat. Walter realized, as they moved down the brightly-lit corridor, that Bernat had not said a word to anyone after his final discussion with Dr. Robert.

Dr. Robert accompanied them to the elevator. He pressed the button to request a car and then said, “I’ll meet you down there in a few minutes.”

The elevator chimed and the doors opened. As the nurse pushed him inside, Walter thought, Down there? There was such an ominous suggestion to the phrase. Walter knew, intellectually, that many hospitals kept their larger laboratories in their basement areas where there tended to be open area and it was easier to shield sensitive equipment from possible interference.

No one spoke during the short ride downward. Walter could not see the nurse’s face, as she stood behind him. Bernat stood to one side of him and Walter could see part of his profile. He appeared tense and remained silent the entire time.

There was another chime, but the doors did not open immediately. Tight-lipped, Bernat waved his badge over the small dark panel below the elevator controls. A different tone sounded and the doors parted. The corridor ahead was empty and seemed to impart a much more sterile atmosphere than the hospital floors above had. Maybe that was by design, Walter considered, intended to project an air of modern, state-of-the-art expertise. If so, he decided, he drew little comfort from it.

The trio moved into the corridor and passed several doors. Many of them seemed to be offices or storage rooms, but there were travelling just swiftly enough that he did not have quite enough time to make out what the signs on them said. They stopped outside a large sealed door and Bernat swiped his badge again. There was came the sound of a mechanism moving (the door lock disengaging, Walter guessed) and then a faint hiss like escaping air as the door was opened. They entered and then the door was closed behind them.

#

September 7, 1977 . . .

Walter’s fears eased somewhat when he saw the equipment. Even though their trip down in the elevator and through the corridor had been brief, there had been sufficient time for his mind to construct images of an immense apparatus, of himself trapped in the midst of diabolical-looking machinery being subjected to . . . to . . . to what he would be subjected he had never quite made it to before their trip down here had ended.

Dr. Robert led them to a small cluster of equipment. Near it were several panels, a handful of small displays, and a single platform about the size of a hospital bed. Walter noted that was exactly what it seemed to be: a standard-issue hospital bed stripped down to its basics, used because it was convenient and available. None of appear particularly menacing, and yet Walter could not completely dismiss a vague stirring of uneasiness.

Turning to address Walter, Dr. Robert began “Walter, he said, “we done just about every biochemical test we can available to us here.” He frowned slightly, his eyes darting for a moment toward Bernat without ever quite making contact. “At this point, nearly all of them have come back normal,” he went on. “Or within ranges that we accept as normal.” Something shifted in his eyes. “But there’s still something that doesn’t quite add up in these results.” He slapped the clipboard against his open palm. “It might be nothing,” he said, clearly not believing it. “But I want to make sure.”

He turned and gestured toward the collection of equipment. “This will measure the electrical fields within your body,” he explained. He added a weak, almost apologetic smile. “We typically use it for training purposes on fresh cadavers to demonstrate how nerve impulses work.”

Walter felt a sudden chill. His earlier disquiet blossomed anew.

“Rest assured,” Dr. Robert continued quietly. “It’s been thoroughly cleaned.”

Walter found that the declaration did nothing to ease his growing fear.

“The tests shouldn’t take long,” the doctor said. “It usually takes longer to set up the experi—prepare the patient than to complete the tests.” He swallowed, looking at Walter with what seemed to be sincere contrition for his oratory lapse.

His eyes moving between Dr. Robert and the makeshift platform, Walter tried to decide whether he could refuse to participate in this procedure. Sure, his father had signed the release form, but that did not mean that he had to do it. Did it? Despite his misgivings, a part of Walter’s mind prodded at him to allow the tests to be performed. It did not seem driven by any need to submit to authority, but from something else entirely. He remained bothered, though, by the fact that Bernat had continued to remain silent since before they had left the room.

“Okay,” he agreed in a quiet tone that he hoped did not sound too meek. “I just want to go home.” While that was certainly true, it was not truly his chief reason for agreeing to the testing.

Dr. Robert flashed him a quick smile of approval. Even Bernat seemed to relax slightly, and that eased some of Walter’s disquiet. The nurse helped him stand and guided him to the bed, helping get him properly positioned on it. She did not seem to share the same underlying apprehension that the two physicians shared. That, or their behavior was driven by something else entirely and she had no reason for any such concerns. She seemed to exhibit no particular curiosity about the chamber or its contents, as if she had been here many times before. Walter doubted that she was their obedient minion, without conscience of her own. He had not received that kind of impression of her at any point during the past few days that she had helped care for him.

Once he was in place, Dr. Robert spoke to the young nurse, dismissing her. “That’ll be fine for now,” he told her. “We’ll let you know when we’re done here.”

She nodded obediently, giving Walter a quick glance. “Yes, doctor.” As far as he could tell, there was no hint of warning or menace nor, he found to his disappointment, even a hint of personal interest. She exited the chamber. Walter could hear the door seal itself again behind her.

While Dr. Robert started and adjusted the various pieces of equipment, Bernat approached Walter, carrying a tangle of what looked to be standard medical electrodes.

“This may be uncomfortable in places,” Bernat warned him, speaking for the first time. His accent seemed unusually heavy. “And you will need to disrobe.”

With a tight-lipped grimace, Walter removed his robe and allowed Bernat to help him remove the pajamas. He lay down again, naked, but relieved to find that the room was not too cold. Bernat began to apply the disc-shaped contacts at strategic places along Walter’s body. When he reached Walter’s inner thigh, Walter was definitely glad that the nurse was no longer present.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

#

June 10, 1986 . . .

The four heroes were well outnumbered by their attackers. The assailants had clearly intended to ambush the men, planning on their numbers to overwhelm the four heroes. It was possible, Walter thought, that they had not known exactly how many heroes they might be face, only that there be many more of them.

They nearly succeeded in surprising the heroes by not gathering too noticeably together and staying to the shadows, but one of their number—it was no longer clear which one—had dropped prematurely from the overhead supports. Fallen seemed to be more accurate, for the man’s landing—at least Walter assumed that it had been a male, but the dark clothing and masks that shrouded their faces made it difficult to know for certain—appeared to have not been part of the plan. He had landed awkwardly, his legs sprawling out beneath. Walter thought he heard the sharp crack of bones breaking, but his attention shifted to far more immediate matters as the other members of the fallen figure’s group gathered and attacked.

Accustomed to fighting as a team, the four heroes formed a tight knot, their backs to each other. The dark-clad attackers moved in, sporting a variety of hand weapons. Most carried clubs or metal rods, but a few brandished firearms. Walter knew that those carrying guns would be frustrated, and so at disadvantage, being unable to fire for fear of hitting one of their number. The hesitation would not last, Walter knew, but it would aid him and his companions for the moment.

None of the heroes suffered any immediate injury. They were able, together and singly, to simply avoid or toss aside most of those who lunged at them. Increasingly, though, their attackers grew more organized and hostile. Walter saw a dark gash appear on Pulsar’s cheek when one of the thugs managed to connect with a narrow rod. Pulsar winced a moment later, but did not relent. The attackers continued to press at them, forcing them into a tighter and tighter knot. A few, feeling they were close enough not to miss, fired their weapons. Walter felt the impact as the bullets made contact with his body armor. He forced himself to ignore it, confident in the protection provided by Thomas Raynes’ new design.

Walter felt the sting as edge of a thin metallic whip snapped by his head. For an instant, he imagined how it might have felt had its owner managed to make contact. Enough, Walter decided. He had a dread-filled sense of what would happen if one of them did not take more immediate and drastic action. Better me, he thought, than . . .

“Get ready!” he shouted, trying to pitch his voice so that it would carry only to his companions. He did not know whether any of them had heard him. They were each intently engaged in their own defense, so could spare no effort to respond. Still, Walter knew that he could not wait much longer to act.

A moment free of being assailed presented itself and Walter wrapped his arms tight around his body. He activated a hidden control on his belt and waited. A moment later, he felt the telltale tingle of his skin. He flung his arms outward, releasing the electrical energy that flowed throughout his suit. Forced to build beyond the capacity of the suit’s circuitry to contain, it leapt outward, seeking a path through which to flow. It found many. Blue-white arcs crackled and flared, and the attackers around them went rigid. Some convulsed, and others fell immediately limp, as the energy released them.

Walter sagged slightly, breathing hard. He forced himself to remain standing even as his legs threatened to buckle beneath him. The effort from this mass method of defense, while usually very effective, drained him severely. He would recover in time, but it was not a condition that could be easily remedied by the consumption of food or aided by simple rest—although the latter did help somewhat.

He looked up weakly, nodding to let the others know that he was okay. A flicker of movement caught his attention and his eyes looked past the other three heroes. One of the larger thugs was still conscious and attempting to flee.

“Always at least one asshole with insulated boots,” Jade snarled.

“I’ve got him,” Iron-Clad growled. He took a large, bounding step in the direction of the fleeing attacker.

“No!” Walter called out weakly.

His shout came out hoarse and faint. He lifted a trembling arm, trying to direct a blast that might disable the escaping assailant; he knew he could do nothing to effect the massive hero’s charge. His remaining strength failed him as Iron-Clad closed in on his pursuit.

Sensing the hero’s pursuit, the darkly-dressed hoodlum turned and, to Walter’s surprise, decided to make a stand. He began firing his automatic weapon at the advancing metal-clad hero. Bullets rang with sharp metallic echoes as they ricocheted off of the hero’s metal armor. Iron-Clad raised his thick metallic staff, closing the last few feet of distance.

Walter cried out again, but it was choked off. He raised his arm again, but it was too late. Iron-Clad swung the staff with both hands. A deep roar sounded from the hulking hero. It was followed a moment later by the sickening sound of the shaft’s impact against the attacker’s head. The staff carried him along its arc before he finally flew onward, stopping when he crashed against the cinderblock wall.

The attacker’s body slid like a limp ragdoll to the concrete floor. He was almost certainly dead, Walter concluded, or had suffered a severe concussion and devastating damage to his jaw and cheekbones.

Iron-Clad did not give the fallen thug another glance. Instead, he just made his way easily back to the other heroes. The casual way in which he carried himself sickened Walter. Certainly, the man had attacked them, but he had trouble reconciling the amount of force that Iron-Clad had displayed with the minor threat that he had represented to the heroes.

Walter glanced toward Pulsar. The red-and-black-clad hero, while not meeting Walter’s eyes, stood tight-lipped as he watched the massive hero return. Jade’s expression was impassive, but his eyes were bright in a way that made Walter uneasy.

“That’s one less we’ll have to worry about,” Iron-Clad announced, grinning tightly.

Walter looked beyond the metal-clad hero. The body of the attacker remained still. If he was not already dead, Walter considered, he would be soon. A part of him almost wanted to put the man out of his misery, Even if he lived, he would be a long time recovering—if he ever did. Certainly, the man was a criminal, but there were rules of decency that should be followed.

“Is there a problem, Knight?”

Iron-Clad deep tone penetrated his reverie. His eyes turned to the towering hero. He characterized an imposing figure, but Walter found that he was not intimidated by him—he simply did not want to deal with him. He simply looked away and glanced around them at the collection of their still-senseless assailants.

Without another word, he turned and walked away. Let them clean it up.

#

Present day . . .

Walter watched as a hero dressed in a deep blue and red outfit shook hands with the governor. Both were shown in profile, the hero’s cape appearing to shift color as it flapped behind him in the wind. Both men turned to face the camera. The governor wore a wide politician’s smile; the hero’s face bore a lesser, more stoic one.

Good to see that they’re still appreciated, Walter thought, granting his silent approval. He did not know the name of the hero, but that did not really matter. As long as heroes were still receiving some recognition for their efforts, that was what was important. A moment later, though, Walter’s optimism was replaced by despair.

The camera zoomed in on the hero, shifting to become a still image backed with the patriotic color scheme of red, white, and blue. Words dissolved into the screen: I Support Joseph Pendleton for Governor. And then, in smaller, but still readable type beneath it: Endorsed by the Coalition of Justice. The image shifted to a photographic portrait of the governor.

Walter raised the remote control and angrily turned off the display. Its image quickly faded to a reassuring blank darkness. We never would have done this. Never. While they might have worked with those in positions of political power, even be honored by them, the heroes of his day never would have dared to engage in an activity that could potentially compromise their integrity as a symbol of impartial justice. Undeniably, some had failed to live up to the image, but the vast majority of them had managed to uphold it.

In the end, they remained human underneath the outfits, capes, and armor. This meant that they were vulnerable to the same weaknesses of spirit that the rest of humanity suffered. It was that sense of decency and honor that separated the heroes from those that society considered to be villains, although even Walter had to admit that the area that divided the two groups was often very gray indeed.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

He forced himself up into a sitting position. A shower, at least, he decided. It was something that needed to be done.

While he waited for the water to warm up, he avoided the mirror. Although he felt no different physically, he was convinced that he could contend with what he might see there. He was tempted to simply shower in the dark, but recognized just how foolish a notion that was. His reflection, he knew, could not follow him into the shower.

He stood under the steaming water for a long time, long after the amount of time had passed that it might have taken to wash the confluence of shared body fluids from him. He studied the long rivulets of water ran down his body, watching as they flowed down the drain, hopefully taking all traces of his infidelity with him. It could not, however, wash away the turmoil that roiled within him.

A short time passed, and he started to feel more clammy than clean. He gave up and shut off the water flow. For a while he remained there, letting the water drip from his body until he began to fell chilled. He then reached for towel, dried himself, and began to dress. He knew that he would find a way to get through the day because he had to. Tomorrow, though, when he returned home, would be a different story.

#

June 10, 1986 . . .

Walter charged after the fleeing perpetrators. One of them decided to take a stand, stopping to turn and begin firing his automatic weapon in his direction. Walter felt the spray of bullets as they impacted his body armor, but was confident in the protection provided by Thomas Raynes’ new design.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

He saw the bed, still neat and unmade, and felt a thick swell of nausea. It had little to do with the aftereffects of the two glasses of Scotch and everything to do with his growing sense of guilt. He managed to fit it back, opting to drop into the room's single chair rather seat himself on the bed. It looked exactly like the one in the room he had just left. Only by focusing on the subtle dissimilarities in the room's décor was he able to convince himself that he was now in a different place.

For a long time, he simply stared into the darkness of the room. He was tired, but he did not know whether he would be able to sleep—that he should be allowed to sleep. How would he tell Clara? Would he tell Clara? Would she just know as soon as she saw him? A part of him wanted cry, to release his fear and remorse in an eruption of tears and sorrow, but he could seem to find it within himself to do so.

He awoke to bright daylight. At some point, although he had memory of doing so, he had moved to the bed, covering himself with the topmost blanket. It took only a moment for his memories of the events of the night to return and he lay there, unwilling to move. Sharp pains drove at his stomach. While he was undoubtedly hungry, he deeply questioned his ability to eat. He glanced at the clock, calculating that he had missed the free continental breakfast offered in the small coffee shop off the main lobby.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

Even if his mind had not been impaired by the Scotch, he did not think he could have arrived at a graceful way out of this situation. To simply turn around and leave seemed rude. Instead, their gazes remained locked together.

Although Walter had no specific recollection of how it happened, the next thing he knew he was laying on his back across the large bed. His shirt was unbuttoned and open, leaving his chest bare. He looked down to see the long dark hair of the young woman as she pulled his trousers, including his underwear, exposing him completely to her. She caressed him there and, despite himself, he shivered and felt his body respond to her touch.

Her head lifted, causing her hair to fall in a dark cascade along her face. Giving him a smile that spoke of hunger and desire, she began to slide her body upward along his until her face was above his own. She then lowered her lips to his. They were warm and soft and he found himself responding in kind. Their lips parted for only a moment before they met again in a longer, lingering kiss. Walter felt her tongue touch his, probing. Her breasts were soft and warm against him. Part of him wanted it to stop, to prevent the unpardonable situation from going any further, but he felt unable to resist, from moving away from beneath her to go . . . where?

Lifting herself from him, she ran her fingers longingly along his bare chest. She then descended upon, taking him inside her. Walter breathed an ecstatic moan. His head tilted back and his eyes closed as the intensity of the experience impacted him. She moved upon him, rocking him toward an orgasmic release.

He had but one thought as he climaxed within her: Clara.

#

August 14, 1994 . . .

Walter awoke sometime later in darkness. The clock by the bedside read: 2:18. He raised himself onto one arm, still feeling vaguely foggy. Had it been a dream? He reached out onto the bed to find that he was alone. Switching on the light, he then recognized immediately that it was not his room. She was gone. And he realized that he had not even known her name.

He dressed quickly, hoping that she had at least paid for the room. As he left it, he was relieved to find the hallway empty. Despite the hour, it was not unlikely that someone else might be returning from some late-night revelry. He made his way to the elevator and punched for the floor where his room was located.

For some reason, he hesitated when he reached his room. Finally, unable to the source of his unease, he inserted the key and opened the door. To his relief, the message light on the desk phone remained dark. He had feared that he might it flashing, meaning that Clara had called and, upon receiving no answer, had left a message for him. That she had not did little to ease his guilt, but it gave him more time to come to terms with it.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

Still looking across at Walter, she seemed about speak, but then apparently changed her mind and slowly began to eat. Walter waited, watching her for a moment, and then picked up his own fork and started on his meal.

The dinner passed quietly, as many of their meals together often did. Walter made occasional low noises of approval as sampled each of the dishes that she had prepared. She was a marvelous cook, although he had not known it when he had proposed to her. While they were dating, she had seemed more than willing to have him take her for meals, but those occasions had become less frequent now that they were together and saving for the future.

Walter wiped at his lips with the napkin, trying to be cultured about it, but knowing that he failed miserably. The meal had been delicious, his stomach was full, and he was with the woman he loved. He placed the napkin deftly on the table.

“That was wonderful, sweetheart,” he said, smiling at her, while trying to suppress an unexpected burp. “It seemed even better than usual.” He paused, watching her expression. Making such inquisitive compliments always made him feel awkward, never being quite certain how they would be taken.

Clara seemed pleased that he had noticed and Walter relaxed. “I braised it a little differently,” she explained. “And tried a few different spices.”

Walter nodded approvingly; it truly had been delicious.

“I made dessert too,” she added and Walter almost sighed. He was almost full to bursting now, but he would not dare even consider hurting her feelings by not at least sampling some of whatever she had made.

“But while the coffee is still brewing,” she went on, “maybe I should take just a look at what kind of chocolate you brought me.”

Walter laughed softly and passed the box over to her. He had picked out the assortment himself, choosing ones that he knew were her favorites. It was slightly more expensive that way, but well worth hollow the extra cost to see her happy. Like most women he knew, she loved chocolate, but generally consumed it only on special occasions. He had seen her make an average -sized chocolate bunny last for nearly two weeks after receiving it on Easter.

She unwrapped the box and began to examine its contents. Walter had little doubt that she could tell which variety each piece simply by looking at it. After several moments of this study, she withdrew one, along with its paper wrapper, and placed it on her plate. She then lifted the chocolate to her lips and took a small, dainty bite, closing her eyes as she did so.

Walter smiled to himself as she relished the treat. He then remembered the additional gift still nestled in his coat pocket. While she finished the small piece of chocolate, he reached down into his jacket and withdrew the small box. When he was certain that she was ready, he held it out to her.

“Something else?” She grinned, almost giggling. There was something almost giddy in her demeanor and Walter wondered if the champagne might have gone to her head. “You spoil me.”

“Yes,” he agreed, and allowed her to take the box anyway.

This one, much smaller than the box that the chocolates had come in, she opened as well. She held her breath for a moment and then stared at Walter, her eyes shining. “It’s beautiful.”

He wanted to say something corny like, “Not as much as you,” but he tried to prevent himself from spouting such foolish clichés in her presence. Not that she minded, as far as he could tell, it was just that he felt that she deserved phrases that displayed a bit more originality. Most of time, though, this left him with little to say, usually a choice between silence and the occasional nod of agreement.

“Let me put it on you.”

“Okay,” Clara agreed, her smile widening. She put the small box down and lifted the hair from the nape of her neck.

Walter stood and came around the table. He lifted the box and withdrew the item it contained. It was a pendant with a heart carved from a single ruby with a small diamond mounted next to it. He had been saving since Christmas for it, putting what little money he could in order to afford it for today. Carefully, he placed the thin gold chain around her neck and closed the clasp. Clara released her hair and turned toward him.

The small jeweled heart hung to fall just above the narrow hollow between her breasts. It looked much as Walter had imagined it would, although he had pictured it in other ways as well. He hoped she still wear it later that night after they had gone to bed. Actually, he hoped that it would be all that she would be wearing.

Clara glanced down at the pendant and then back toward Walter, but not quite looking at him. She seemed thoughtful as her fingers came up to lightly touch it. Her eyes refocused and she turned toward the cabinet.

“I have something for you too,” she said.

She picked up a small white envelope and placed it on the table between them. Walter reached for it, but she placed her hand on his before he could take it.

“I’m pregnant.”

Walter stared at Clara dumbly, not at all sure that he had heard her words correctly. Blood then roared in his ears and it took him a long moment for the light-headed sensation to pass. Not trusting that he could yet find his voice, he took the envelope and opened it. It contained a laboratory report from doctor’s office, confirming what Clara had just told him: she was carrying their child.

“Are you happy?”

There was a faint quaver in her voice that told him that she was genuinely worried that he might not be.

“Yes,” he managed to croak out. And then, more strongly, “Yes!”

She smiled softly and visibly relaxed.

“How long?”

“A little over two months, they think.”

Walter nodded, forcing himself to do the mental calculations. The child would probably be born in August or September: a late summer or autumn baby. Walter found himself still struggling to accept the news. Certainly, they had discussed starting a family, but for some reason he had thought they would plan it out a bit more thoroughly. A lot of couples let it be known when they were “trying” (which, for some couples, Walter felt it was an unnecessary insight into the pair’s sex life). While he thought it unlikely that they would have publicly announced it, he would have thought that they would have discussed it with each other. Or had they? He could not recall a specific decision on the matter, only the occasional conversation on the topic. Apparently, Clara had taken one or more of these as tacit permission and . . . Well, he decided, it was done. There were certainly old enough. Suddenly, their house felt quite a bit smaller than it had when he had first arrived home---and that was months before the child even arrived.

That night, with Clara snuggled close and softly breathing in sleep beside him, Walter found that his own mind refused to succumb to slumber. Clara had, as he had hoped, come to bed wearing nothing but her new pendant. She had looked as warm and desirable as he had expected. Yet, as they made love, there was an additional tenderness in the way he had treated her that night. Within her she now carried their child—and that changed everything.

#

August 13, 1994 . . .

Walter sat alone at the small table in the hotel bar. As darkness descended outside, no one seemed inclined to turn up the lights, leaving the interior to fill with shadows. He had talked to Clara and the boys from his room, but being two time zones away, they were now preparing for bed. Walter found himself feeling restless, as he often did after a long flight. He knew that he if he went to bed now, even if he managed to fall asleep, he would wake up too early. It was far easier to occupy his time in the evening than it was during the too-early hours of the morning.

He sipped at his second double Scotch on the rocks of the night. It was a rare indulgence, but how far did he have to go? A few yards down the hallway to the elevator, four floors up, and then down another hallway to his room. Besides, it was not as though he had downed each one in a single swallow. In fact, he had lingered over this one for so long that he was starting to notice curious looks from the bartender.

The bar was nearly empty, which surprised him given its location and that it was a Friday night. It being Friday the Thirteenth must be keeping people away, he considered with wry amusement. That, or the newly-called baseball strike had given them less reason to populate the bars that evening.

In a corner booth, five business men in department store-quality suits broke into occasional shouts of laughter. At least two of them, Walter judged, would be wise to take a taxi home. Two tables over from them, another man sat alone, apparently waiting for someone to join him. His eyes alternated between his watch and the main entrance to the bar. Something in his mannerisms told Walter that he was anxious about something involving whoever he was meeting.

The only other patrons that Walter could see were a young couple seated at a table near one of the windows. They talked energetically, the young man making frequent gestures with his arms. The young woman watched him with an intensity that told Walter that she was clearly beguiled with her companion. He seemed not to notice. Too bad, Walter concluded with bemusement. You definitely could have gotten some tonight. He smiled to himself, remembering himself and Clara during the early days of their relationship. Had he looked at her like that? He decided that he probably had.

He sipped at his drink, and then rotated the glass slowly to swirl its contents before setting it back on the table. A flicker of dark motion caught his attention and he turned to look toward the entrance. His first reaction was one of caution and alarm, but that vanished quickly when he saw who it was.

She was of average height, probably about five-foot-eight, he guessed. Her black dress, plain except for some stitching near the neckline, fit her shape perfectly. It was not so tight as to leave nothing of her dimensions to the imagination, nor was it loose and shapeless. The skirt fell to just above her knees; there was just enough of a sleeve as to not leave her upper arms completely bare. Her hair was long and dark, hanging about halfway down to cover her shoulder blades. In the dim lighting, it appeared to be fine, but with a natural wave to it. She wore short heels. They provided just enough lift to accent her slim and graceful legs.

She paused in the doorway, searching the interior with an air of self-possessed confidence. Walter’s eyes turned toward the man sitting alone, assuming that she was his intended companion. Lucky man, he thought, and returned to his drink. It was not until several minutes later that he realized that she was still there, but now seated at the bar alone. The man who he had thought was to be her date was gone. Interesting.

He studied the woman again, trying to do so covertly, looking for any additional clues as to why she might be there. Was she meeting someone, someone who was now late or had been delayed? She did not seem to have the look of a professional escort, and carried herself too well to be a common prostitute. While she did look like the type that a lonely businessman might find himself attracted to, he just was not quite getting those kinds of vibes from her—not that he would know for certain, anyway.

Starting to feel the effects of the second drink, Walter decided to allow the mystery of the dark-haired woman to resolve itself without him. He drained the last of the Scotch and then withdrew two singles from his wallet, leaving on the table underneath the glass. Rising from the chair, he paused, confirming that it was definitely time to return to his room. He made his way past the bar, trying not to give the woman more than a momentary glance, while hoping that his gait did not betray his mildly inebriated state.

Once outside in the hallway, he stopped, trying to remember which way led to the elevators, and then continued on. He had traveled only a few feet when he heard a voice behind him.

“Excuse me.”

Walter slowed and turned, trying not to react with surprise when he saw the young woman in the black dress approach him. He waited while she closed the gap between them.

“Yes?”

She gave him a tentative, almost shy smile.

“I was wondering if maybe you’d be willing to take me to my room?” She glanced quickly along the hallway. “I don’t like being alone in here.”

Walter stared at her, trying to parse her words. He silently scolded himself for his initial interpretation of her request. She was obviously a young woman who just wanted someone to make sure that she made it back to her room safely. It was certainly a sensible enough request for an attractive woman to make at night in an unknown city.

Finally, Walter answered her with a smile. “It would be my pleasure.” He was reasonably certain that he had not slurred any of the words.

She looked visibly relieved and moved into position beside him as they continued toward the elevators.

The wait for the next elevator car was brief, saving Walter from having to potentially engage her in conversation. He held the door open for her and then followed her inside.

“Four, please,” she said, giving him darting smile.

There was a quality to her voice that Walter found intriguing. It held a nuance of training or culture that he could not quite identify. He pressed the button for her floor and stepped back as the doors closed.

Now that they were alone, he felt a sudden surge of something like vertigo. The air felt close and slightly warm and he wondered whether it was really a fault of the elevator’s air conditioning system, or his own reaction to being in a confined space with an attractive woman. Although they only ascended four floors, it felt as if they had traveled nearly forty. The elevator chimed, slowed, and the doors parted. Once again, he reached his hand out to hold them open for her. She stepped past him and then waited while he exited.

As the doors closed behind him, Walter felt a renewed swell of that sense of claustrophobia. He could not attribute it to the hotel’s low ceilings, as it had not bothered him earlier.

“My room’s just down here,” she said, waving at the row of doorways.

Walter nodded once, lacking anything meaningful to add. He followed her down the hallway, realizing that her feet made almost no sound at all on the thinly padded carpet. She stopped at one of the rooms and inserted her key. Walter noted that it was Room 417, although he was not certain why that really mattered. She opened the door onto darkness and stepped inside.

“Could you wait right here while I turn on the lights?”

Walter smiled politely. “Of course.”

She disappeared into the darkness. A moment later, the light from one of the bedside lamps cast a pale, yellow-white light into the room. She reappeared, looking much more reassured.

“Thank you,” she said. “I really appreciate it.”

“It was the least I could do,” Walter replied, not at all sure why he said it, although it was essentially true.

She smiled in a sweet, almost coy way. Walter realized then that she had removed her shoes while she had turned on the light. Her eyes no longer gazed directly at his chin.

“Would you be willing to wait just a minute longer while I . . .” she tilted her head toward the small bathroom. “Then you can go?”

Walter’s eyes glanced toward the darkened bathroom and then nodded. What was the harm? For someone so confidently dressed, she did seem to possess a number of neuroses.

He waited for her to finish and, feeling conspicuous standing alone out in the hallway, took a step inside. In doing so, he lost his grip on the door and it closed behind him. He heard water running in the bathroom and reached for handle, hoping that it looked like he had not yet closed the door.

She appeared into the doorway. Her eyes noted the now-closed door, but the only change in her expression was the slight hint of a smile.

“I really do want to thank you,” she said, moving forward to stand directly in front of him.

With her standing that close, Walter could smell her subtle fragrance, something he had caught only the barest hint of in the elevator and out in the hall. He was about to speak when she reached up and, with a single motion of her hand, caused her dress to drop. It fell in a mound of dark fabric at her feet. She stood before him now completely naked—Completely. Naked.

Walter was not so addled by the alcohol that he did not recognize the seduction for what it was. She looked up at him, studying his reaction. She evidently liked what she witnessed here, for she smiled with faint, but clear satisfaction.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Heroic Measures (continued)

He watched as she tried to comprehend, to come to terms with what he had shown her. He understood; it was more than a little unnerving to have one’s reality suddenly shifted beneath one’s feet.

“So it was you . . .” Her gaze grew distant as she replayed her memories of the night of the attack. “All along . . . it was you.”

Walter nodded again. “Yes.”

Clara’s eyes refocused on his. “I don’t know what to say.” Her eyes darted back to the mask, the gloves, and then back at him. “I really don’t.”

Walter’s thoughts filled with leading answers: That you still love me. That you’re amazed that a hero would take a personal interest in you. That you’ll . . .

“Tell me that it doesn’t matter.”

Her eyes widened almost incredulously. “But it does!” Her voice had regained some of its strength. “It changes . . . everything.”

Walter could not help it, but he felt his body sag slightly. So this is it.

Clara’s eyes fixed on his. “Why now? Why did you tell me now?”

“Because I had to,” he said, fighting to speak past the lump that had formed in his throat. “Because I love you.” It might be the last thing she wanted to hear right now, but it was the truth, and he had to say it.

She appeared to accept the statement with anger. Turning her head away from him, she stared into the contents of the box. Her face was a mask of confusion and torment. She looked back at him once more. Walter could see her struggle between fury and tears.

“I still don’t understand,” she said. “Why tell me now?”

Walter reached up and took her hands in his. She stared down at them for a moment and then back into his eyes.

“Because I want you to marry me.”

#

February 12, 1982 . . .

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“I’m going to ask her to marry me.”

Red whacked one of the thugs who had started to rise, but otherwise said nothing.

“You don’t think I should?” Walter was troubled by his companion’s lack of response. He glanced around: none of the other hoods seemed to be inclined to get back up and try again.

“I didn’t say anything,” Red responded casually, also looking around.

“I know,” Walter said. “Quite eloquently.”

He knelt and started fitting a pair of magnetic cuffs on the unconscious miscreant at his feet. He tossed a set to Red. Red checked them and then attached them to the dazed person lying down before him.

“It can make things complicated,” Red explained, holding out his hand for another set of restraints.

Walter frowned. He had thought of that before, which is why it had taken him so long to make his mind to propose to Clara. There was no doubt in his mind that he loved her deeply—and he was fairly certain that she felt the same way. But Red was right: relationships between heroes and civilians had a tendency to not work out. The ones between two heroes had a slightly better average for success, but not by much. Besides, there were no women among the ranks of the heroes for which he felt any attraction—at least none that were available. It was akin, Walter supposed, to be married to someone in law enforcement or a military officer on active duty. Actually, he mused, finding some small glint of humor in the matter, it was a lot like that.

He rose to his feet and looked around again. All of the fallen hoods seemed to be secure. A few moaned softly as they began to regain their senses. Walter nodded to Red to call it in to the police and the pair prepared to leave the scene.

“I’m not saying ‘No’”, Red said, returning to their conversation. “I’m just not saying ‘Yes’.”

“Then what are you saying?”

Red ducked into the car and pulled off his mask. “I’m saying,” he said, running a hand through his ruffled sweat-dampened hair, “is that it’s your choice.” He leaned back in the seat as Walter settled in and started the engine. “Just be aware.” Red closed his eyes, a slight smile forming on his lips. “But you’d damned well better ask me to be your best man.”

Walter grinned and put the car into gear.

#

February 14, 1984 . . .

Walter maneuvered his way through the evening traffic, praising himself once more for getting the chocolate, flowers, and jewelry the previous day. It had made him late getting back to the lab, but no one had seemed to notice. Director Chaung was away from his office when Walter had passed by it, so he had probably been safe from any kind of even informal reprimand.

Checking the clock dial on the dashboard, he calculated that he would be a few minutes late at most. Hopefully Clara was not preparing anything that was overly sensitive to its cooking time. If everyone would just keep moving, he swore silently.

On the radio, the international news services were reporting that someone named Chernenko was now in charge of the Soviet Union. Hadn’t they just had a new leader? Walter wondered. This was followed by series of continuing reports of the successful landing of the space shuttle Challenger, along with interviews with several of the astronauts. Walter had to smile; it seemed that the Space Age had finally been renewed in earnest. There followed a series of results from the Winter Olympics taking place in Sarajevo. Walter listened, trying to remember if he participated in any of the office pools for those events.

He pulled into the short, narrow driveway only one minute later than he had expected. Gathering, the gifts from the trunk, and slammed it closed, narrowly missing his coat, and headed inside.

Clara did not meet him at the door, but that was particularly surprising. If she had something on the stove, she preferred to keep an eye on it rather than leave the kitchen. She still never let Walter forget the morning that he had volunteered to cook omelets for them and then had stepped away “for just a quick second” to check something he had heard outside.

She did greet him at the doorway to the kitchen, her hands still in oven mitts and covered with a paisley apron that did little to hide her luscious figure. They exchanged light kisses on the cheek and she smiled at seeing his hands filled.

“You remembered.”

Walter flashed her a sardonic smile.

“Dinner’ll be on table in about two minutes,” she told him. “There’s already an empty vase there.”

Well, that was subtle, he thought, once again grateful that he had not forgotten the flowers. He tried not to imagine what the meal would have been like with an empty vase as their centerpiece.

He walked into the small dining room, finding the table set with their wedding china, crystal wine glasses, and two tapered candles that provided most of the room’s illumination. Placing the box of chocolate down on the table, and moving the jewelry box to his coat pocket, he worked at placing the flowers into the waiting vase. He recognized it, too, as one of the many gifts from their wedding.

Managing to complete the task without making too much of a mess, or not down any of the glassware, he was considering where to properly place the box of chocolates when he heard soft footsteps behind him. He wondered if she had been there watching him fumble with the flowers, but decided that he did not really want to know. She held a steaming serving dish in her hands, waiting pointedly for him to get out of her way so that she could place it on the table. Walker stepped aside quickly.

Clara placed the platter in the middle of the table. Walter sniffed appreciatively. Lamb roast. It was one of her specialties, but one she tended to save for special occasions because of the amount of preparation she put into it.

“Why don’t you pour the wine while I get the rest?” she suggested, nodding toward the table. “I’ll be right back.”

Walter watched her go, taking a moment to admire the way she walked. Some women just don’t need heels, he mused. And I’m lucky enough to have one of them. He turned back toward the table, looking for the aforementioned wine. It took him a moment to locate it, for it turned out to be a bottle of champagne. It was just a small one, but from a real French vineyard he noticed. Walter smiled; she also was treating their second Valentine’s Day as a married couple as a special occasion.

After removing the thin foil, unwinding the wire catch, he then tried to cautiously remove the cork. He discovered that he was holding his breath when he heard the muffled pop from beneath the cloth napkin he had borrowed from the stack on the table. After a tense moment, he breathed with relief when the bottle’s contents did not come bubbling out onto the floor. He was carefully pouring it into the glasses when Clara returned.

Carrying three smaller plates on a tray, she arranged each of these on the table before placing the tray aside on top of a nearby cabinet. She removed her apron, folded it, and then placed in on top of the now-empty tray. Looking over the contents of the table, she smiled and went over to her chair. She paused and Walter nearly dashed over to pull it out for her before she could stare at him pointedly for his lapse in etiquette. Normally, she was not that much of an adherent to the standards of Emily Post, but on occasions like this, she wanted to be treated as special as it was.

Clara seated herself, holding her hands demurely in her lap as Walter slid the chair closer to the table. Apparently satisfied, she moved her hands into view and waited for Walter to take his seat. Once he was seated, she passed her plate to him and waited for him to fill it. She watched him, giving him small, non-verbal cues as to the portions she wanted of each item and then sat patiently while he served himself. After the serving ritual was completed, Walter settled back in his chair and draped his napkin across his lap. He lifted his champagne glass and then looked across the table at Clara.

The candlelight danced across her features, making her eyes sparkle like polished emeralds. Her hair glistened with golden highlights. She looked radiant, warm and desirable. I’m a very lucky man, Walter thought. For a moment, he considered voicing that as part of the toast, but felt foolish—and more than a little selfish—voicing such a thought aloud.

“To us,” he said, wishing he had more to add, but deciding to keep it short rather than to ramble on, sounding inane and insincere.

Clara smiled back at him, raising her own glass to lightly touch against his. “To us.” She took a small sip from it and then replaced the glass on the table.

 
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