Devereux entered the house to the mixed aromas of things cooking. She sniffed experimentally, but was not certain what there were.
Probably beef or buffalo, she guessed. The scent of the spices being used prompted her mind to that conclusion. And some kind of vegetable.
She considered dropping off her belonging in her room before approaching father, but she was already late. Dinner would not quite be ready yet, she knew, but he would notice nonetheless. She paused at the entrance to the kitchen, watching her father as he placed the last of some cooking pots and utensils into a sink filled with soapy water.
They had a dishwasher, but he rarely used it. Washing the dishes by hand, and occasionally asking her to help him dry them, was just something that he did—that he had always done, as far back as Devereux could remember. It had been, Devereux reflected, a time of conversation between him and her mother. He would take clean and put away the dishes, in no particular hurry to get the task done, while she sat finishing her coffee. They would discuss many things, Devereux remembered, although there was rarely a specific theme. It was simply their time together, to catch up on the events of each other’s days.
It had been two years since her mother had sat in that place at the table, but her father still followed the ritual every evening that he was home. Devereux had wondered if she should sit there sometimes, not in her mother’s place, of course, but at the table and give him company as he completed routine. But there was always homework or friends or something that had prevented her from following through on that thought.
“Christine,” her father greeted her, wiping his hands on a towel as he turned to face her.
Christine? Not “Chris”? Uh oh. At least it’s not my full name.
Her father’s expression was even as he looked at his daughter.
“Is there something you want to tell me?”
Devereux hesitated, fighting to keep her own expression under control.
Had the Fleet Academy sent something to the house? Even after she had instructed them not? Had Abbey called him? She couldn’t do that. Could she? Would she?
For a moment, Devereux considered denying it, or at least feigning ignorance. She decided against doing either one.
It’s not going to be any easier later, she told herself.
She reached down and withdrew the admissions packet from her pack. She glanced down at it before offering it to her father. He stared down at it for a moment before accepting it.
“What’s this?”
“What we need to talk about,” Devereux said, surprised at the even calm in her voice.
“I see,” her father said and opened the portfolio. He carried it to the table and sat down, unfolding it completely.
Devereux then realized that her father had originally some other topic on his mind, but this now superseded it.
Damn.
She could have delayed this after all, but her abrupt act of honesty had prevented that. It was probably for the best, she decided.
Her father was very quiet as he carefully read over the materials. He made none of the usual thoughtful noises that were typical when he studied information, nor had he reached for a pad to make notes on.
Devereux waited, unwilling to speak, and uncertain what she would say if she could. After several minutes, although it seemed much longer than that to Devereux, her father sat back and looked up at her. He said nothing and his expression betrayed nothing of his thoughts.
“I got accepted to the Academy,” Devereux said, feeling immediately foolish for stating the obvious.
“I can see that.”
There was no anger in her father’s voice. It sounded almost completely devoid of any emotion, Devereux thought.
What is he thinking?
She began to silently through the litany of self-recriminations again, beginning with that she should have told when she had first planned to submit her application and concluding with how she had delayed coming home that evening in an attempt to forestall this conversation.
“It’s a full scholarship, Dad,” Devereux reported. She wanted to walk over and point it out to him on the page, but remained where she was.
“I see that,” he intoned.
Devereux felt a rise of frustration and anger. Although it seemed directed toward her father, she recognized that she was as much its target. She was the one who had caused this situation, and he was not playing by the rules. What those rules exactly were, she could not say, but she felt that he should show some kind of reaction. Anger: she could deal with. Objections: she was ready to refute them. But this flat lack of reaction was not something she had been prepared to cope with. She felt as though they had reached a standoff. The problem was: she did not understand exactly what the impasse was about.
“They need my answer in two weeks, Dad,” she tried again. Her tone took on an unfortunate note of pleading.
“I see.”
Devereux fought back a sigh, but did allow herself a slow, shallow breath. She looked at her father, who stared back at her with an even, yet unreadable expression.
Her father had always expressed distrust and a certain level of animosity toward the Fleet and, by association, the Academy. Devereux had never understood why. Her father tended to be thoughtful and open-minded about nearly everything, but on this one topic he had remained steadfastly intractable. Over the years, she had tried many times to engage her father on the subject, to understand, but he always managed to evade the topic or steer the conversation in a different direction entirely.
Why? She wondered, not for the first time. What had happened regarding the Fleet that had affected him so deeply?
She had performed some historical research and, while some members of her extended family had served in a variety of capacities throughout the Fleet even before the first Orion attacks, none of them had been killed while on active duty. Considering the number of casualties from those assaults, even among the civilian population, the Devereux family tree appeared to have particularly robust—and lucky--branches.
Her father’s reaction was maddening. It made her want to, in turns: rage (“Would you at least react?!”), demand (“I’m going.”), confront (“Don’t you want me to go?”), or withdraw (Say nothing and storm away).
None of these approaches felt particularly productive, and some might even make matters worse, but the current situation was getting her nowhere. Devereux was ready to whichever one led to a speedy resolution; it was her move.
“Your mother,” her father said softly, breaking through the maelstrom of her reverie, “would have wanted this.”
But you don’t? was Devereux’s first reaction. She was surprised that she had not asked it aloud.
A moment later, a heavy silence settled between them.
“When do you leave?” her father asked. His eyes were no longer on her, but seemed fixed on something deep within his own thoughts.
“Not until next year, Dad,” Devereux answered calmly. “I do need to finish my classes here first.” She managed a weak laugh.
“Of course.”
He seemed distracted now, as if thinking something through. To Devereux, he suddenly seemed to be very old . . . and alone. Wrapped up in her own sense of loss, she had never truly understood what her mother’s death had meant to her father. Even with the devastation of having his wife taken from him, he had still had his daughter. All too soon, though, she would be gone too, although in a different way—out on her own—and he would come home every night to an empty house.
That’s still months away, Devereux told herself.
She knew, though, both how slowly and how quickly that time would pass. They would be periods of leave when she could come home, but those would be brief and far apart in time. She could leave him messages, but she knew from her own experiences from two attempted long-distance relationships what a poor substitute those were when what you truly needed was a warm, human presence.
Devereux walked over to the table and rested a hand softly on her father’s shoulder. It still felt solid and strong beneath her hand.
“I’ve got homework to get done,” she told her father gently. “I’ll come down for some hot cocoa later, okay?”
Her father nodded slowly. “I’d like that,” he replied. His voice was a husky whisper.
Devereux’s eyes moved to unfolded portfolio on the table in front of her father and wondered if she should take it or leave it there.
“Don’t forget your papers here,” he said quietly, as if reading her thoughts.
Silently, Devereux gathered the packet up and closed it, tucking it under her arm. Before departing, her lip brushed the side of her father’s head just above his ear.
“I love you, Dad.”
She remained there a moment, listening to his steady breath. Straightening, she headed back toward her bedroom, feeling a melancholy sense of both relief and wonder.
Had that been a tear in his eye?
She did not know for certain, and she was going to turn back to look.
#
Rusty watched the countdown on the large overhead display projected by the computer.
“Engine crew, stand by!” he shouted, much more loudly than was truly necessary.
The Engineering Deck was noisy, but there was nothing approaching the level of sound that had probably been present in the ancient steam- and diesel-powered ocean-going vessels of centuries past. It was all for the sense of drama, he conceded, and grinned.
“Wait for it,” he called. “Hayden,” he added casually. “Watch your head.”
Ensign Hayden turned in confusion at being addressed, for his tasks were in no way connected with the upcoming course change, and avoided by scant millimeters having his forehead collide with an overhead brace. He seemed unaware of it, glanced toward Rusty and, when the Chief did not acknowledge his attention, continued onward.
“Engineering,” came Devereux’s voice over the intercom speakers. “This is the bridge. Thirty seconds.”
“We’re ready here, Cap’n”, Rusty shouted in reply.
The countdown display continued to subtract time. At 10, Devereux’s voice sounded again.
“Engaging course change on my mark.” There was a brief pause while the final seconds counted down. “Mark!”
There was a surge of power through the drive engines, and the noise level did rise significantly, although not to uncomfortable levels. It might be difficult to hold a conversation with someone from across the chamber, but no one was likely to become deafened by it.
The timer had reset and was now counting down to a new deadline.
Rusty heard reports coming from all around him, and ignored most of them.
“All systems green, Chief.”
“Slipstream variances within normal limits.”
“Fuel consumption at ninety-eight point seven.”
Rusty waited, ignoring the countdown display for the moment. This was going to be one of their shorter jumps, and one of the least tricky. If they over- or under-shot their mark, they could easily adjust their heading using standard engines and head to their next transition point. They would lose some time, for certain, but unless they missed their target by a considerable margin, it would mean a few additional hours, not days. There had plenty of time—so far.
He glanced up at the countdown timer, knowing what he would see before he even looked. They still had more than a minute left. Unless it all went to hell in a hand basket in the next thirty seconds, and by the Morris he knew that it could, it should be an eventful ride. He felt no tingle of warning and waited until, right on time, they heard Devereux’s voice again.
““Engineering,” she said, sounding very calm and confident. That made Rusty smile, although he would deny it. “Stand by for transition.”
Rusty did not bother responding that time, nodding to Aruna to send their status to the bridge.
“Ten seconds,” Devereux’s voice came again. Once more there was a pause and then, “Mark!”
There was a different swell of noise as the power levels shifted again and then fell as the power demands on the ship’s drive engines diminished.
“Secure from slipstream,” Devereux said. “Bridge out.”
Rusty shook his head smiling. He then turned to his crew and shouted, “You heard the lady. Secure your stations from slipstream transition. I want status reports from everyone in ten minutes.”
He bit off what he almost said next. He had almost told them to send all of their reports to Elizabeth, but she spent very little time on the Engineering Deck now. Rusty knew that she tried to pass through when she could, but her duties as First Officer either kept her on the bridge or sent her to a lot more locations on the ship than his section. He was proud of him, pleased for her—and he missed her.
Daily staff meetings, and the occasional meal, seemed to be among the few times that they saw each other any more.
She’s working too damned hard.
It was difficult for him to be angry or overly concerned over that. He had always known that Lizzie was driven, wanting to be the best officer that she could be. He also knew that Devereux was a damned fair Captain and would not work Lizzie harder than she could handle.
Well, he thought, that was . . . boring.
It was that truly wanted something exciting to occur during their transit, as such incidents when they involved the drive cores tended to be far more than just “interesting”, but their schedule of course corrections and velocity boosts had already become routine during the past two days. Even though the planned adjustments did not occur at regular intervals, there was a clearly predetermined cadence to them.
It was kind of like sex, Rusty mused. There was some period of frenetic activity, followed by a long stretch of relative inactivity. He considered carrying the analogy further, for he could see that preparing the engine drive cores for slipstream as akin to foreplay, but thereafter the comparisons got kind of weird.
Maybe not if you’re a cyborg, he considered, and then stopped his train of thought right there. It was definitely heading into strange territory.