They walked together in silence. Walter tried to thinking of something either sympathetic or witty to say, but his imagination failed him. Nearly every phrase his mind produced sounded awkward or lame when he considered saying it aloud. Besides, a part of him just wanted to bask in the warm internal glow of being in the close proximity of this girl, with her aware of it there for a change. He could only imagine what she might be thinking, or feeling, but his mind interpreted every shift of her posture and expression as a sign that she found his presence welcome, or at least reassuring.
Her car was parked two blocks away: one block further south and then one block west. The street there, like most of the ones in that section of town, was poorly lit. Most of the street lights appeared to work, but many of them cast a very dim, heavily diffused light. The area where her car was parked was deep in shadows. It had probably been fine during the day when she had arrived, Walter thought, but he was glad that he had offered to accompany her here. There were too many places for someone to hide, too many opportunities for her to get ambushed before she could react.
She was holding her keys and quickly unlocked the door car they reached it. She dropped her purse on the seat and then withdrew a pen and small slip of paper. After writing some on it, she held it out to Walter. He accepted it, looking quickly down at it. It was a business card from the printing shop. He turned it over to find a telephone number written there.
“Call me sometime.” She gave him a smile that caused him to start to tingle from his toes.
He managed to nod and her smile brightened further. Another silent moment passed between them and she climbed into the car. She stared up at him as she closed, and then locked, the door. Her eyes turned away, somewhat reluctantly Walter thought, and she started the car. It started quickly and he stepped back, giving her plenty of room. She glanced back at him one final time before putting the car into gear and pulling away. Walter waited, watching the red glow of her tail lights as they grew distant and then vanished when she turned a corner.
Standing alone in the once again street, Walter realized that he wore an enormous grin. He felt some embarrassment at that, but knew that there was no one to witness his undoubtedly ridiculous expression. Feeling suddenly conspicuous, he headed back into the shadows and back for home.
#
August 9, 1981 . . .
Walter sat at the table, toying idly with the business card that the girl had given him. His sandwich remained mostly neglected, with only a few bites taken from it. He flipped it over to view the handwritten telephone number and then back to the printed side.
Clara Monahan, Printing Sales Associate, it read. It appeared that she disliked the use of her first name. Good to know. He could not really blame her, thinking how Bernadette, and its obvious permutations, had a somewhat outdated sound to it. Not much different from “Walter”, he mused.
He turned the card over again. The number was neatly, if somewhat hurriedly, written there. He wanted very much to call it, but afraid that she might actually answer. What would he say? It was not as though he had been the most articulate conversationalist during their previous two direct encounters. Well, he supposed, he could start by introducing himself. He had the advantage of knowing her name, but she did not, as far as he knew, know his.
That thought stopped him abruptly. He could not tell her his name, not if he wanted to keep his personal identity secret. She knew him only as a costumed hero—one that had come to her rescue twice now, but only as a person behind a mask. If he were to call her now . . .
He felt a sudden ache of loss. Her face had persisted in his thoughts for weeks now, and yet she would have to remain as beyond his reach as ever. It was possible that he might be able to share his secret with her. He desperately wanted to, but almost certainly for all of the wrong reasons, he recognized. If she possessed any interest at all in him, it was with the hero who had saved her, not him. If he wanted her to fall in love with him, he would have to start over. He would have to allow her meet Walter, the ordinary human being, not the avenging hero.
All was not completely lost, he suddenly realized. There might be a way for her to come to know both of them—at least for now. Over the phone she would have no way of knowing who he really was. He could still check on her, hear her voice . . . maybe even talk to her. Somehow, that made it both a little easier and much difficult for him. It would not really be him that she was speaking to, but on the other hand, he would always need to sound bold and confident whenever he called. Can he do that? Walter wondered. The alternative would be to allow her to slip away completely to someone else—assuming that there was not already someone else.
Walter frowned. The knot tightened further in his stomach. He had not considered that possibility before. A girl as attractive must surely have a boyfriend—or at least several young men vying for her attention. For all he knew, she gave her number out to almost anyone she found interesting.
He took a slow breath, trying to calm his roiling emotions. Something deep inside him told Walter that at least the last assumption was not true. As for the rest, he could not be sure—at least not yet. And there was only one way to begin to be certain, at least without continuing to shadow her every move. He eyed the phone mounted on the wall next to kitchen. Now might be his only chance to do this with any measure of privacy. His mother had left to run some errands, leaving him alone in the house. Feeling the knot reform in his stomach, Walter got up, lifted the phone from its cradle, and dialed.
Each distant ring at the other end seemed more prolonged than the previous one. He was about to give up on the eighth ring when there came the sound of someone answering.
“Hello?”
The voice was female, but it did not sound like Clara. Yet, Walter he could not be certain that it was not hers. He knew that telephone lines could distort voices in deceptive ways.
“Hello,” Walter said, forcing a deep, hopefully mature tone. He took a quick breath that he hoped could not be heard over line or, if it was, would be interpreted as static. “I’d like to speak to Clara Monahan, please.”
“May I ask who’s calling?”
Walter froze, his voice blocked by a sudden lump in his throat. It must be her mother. He had not considered the possibility that someone else might answer the phone when he had called. Some hero you are. You really need to learn to think ahead. Stymied already by your future mother-in-law.
“Yes,” Walter replied, managing to regain most of his voice. “I helped her with her car last night.” He waited, silently praying that somewhat vague and mysterious answer would be enough and not just raise more questions.
“Oh.”
He could not quite tell how the person at the other end had reacted to his statement.
“Just a moment,” the voice finally said, after what might have been some muffled discussion at their end. “Let me get her.”
Walter let out a slow sigh of relief. This was not going quite as he had expected.
“Hello?”
It felt as though Walter’s heart skipped several beats. The lump had reformed in his throat. It was undeniably Clara’s voice. It might have been his imagination, but she sounded pleased to be hearing from him.
“Hi Clara,” Walter said, feeling a bit more confident. “I, uh . . .” he cleared his throat, forcing a deeper sound of it. “I just wanted to check to see how you were doing. You know . . . after last night.”
Walter rolled his eyes. “You know?” Yeah, that really sounds like a hero talking . . . and then he hoped that no one was listening on another line. That last phrase could be taken wrong in so many ways . . .
“Yeah,” Clara said, obviously trying to sound casual about it. Walter had the feeling that she had not told her parents about the incident. “I’m fine.” There was a brief pause before her voice returned. “Thank you for calling to check.”
Walter hesitated. What as the right thing to say here? There were certainly things he wanted to say, but none of them seemed appropriate.
“It’s the least I could do,” he finally said. It was true . . . on several levels.
“Oh.”
Walter thought he detected a definite air of disappointment with his response. Okay, he thought. There’s always the more honest approach.
“A beautiful girl like you should be more careful out alone at night like that.” Walter tried very hard to make it sound as conversational as possible, not at all like a rebuke.
The long silence that followed made him think that it had not worked. It was either that, or he had managed to completely freak her out.
“Yeah,” her voice came over the line again. If he read it correctly, it sounded as if she had accepted it with good-natured embarrassment. “Roger keeps telling me that.”
Roger? A boyfriend? Older brother? Either could be a bad omen, Walter thought. His curiosity now nagged at him. Was there any way to find out? Well, he decided, there’s always the direct approach.
“Roger?” He hoped his tone was, while inquisitive, sufficiently neutral.
“My boss at the shop,” Clara laughed. “He always tells me not to me the last one out. Or to at least move my car closer while there’s still someone else there.”
“Sounds like good advice to me,” Walter agreed, laughing himself. “You might consider taking it.” Oops, he thought. Too heavy-handed?
“After last night,” Clara said, “I will.”
“That’s good to hear.” Not that it doesn’t mean I won’t keep trying to watch out for you.
There was a long silence. Walter felt he should say something else. Again, various remarks flitted through his mind, but none of them seemed like the right one. Maybe I’d better just hang up.
“Will I see you again?”
Walter paused, caught off-guard. It was not a question that he had anticipated. What was the right way to answer it?
“Not under the same circumstances, I hope,” he replied, opting for something lightly humorous.
“I hope that’s not what it would take.”
Walter’s cheeks felt warm. The conversation was venturing into areas he had not truly expected. I’d better end this quick, he thought. Before it really gets out of control.
“I’ll see what I can do,” he said, following up with a laugh that sounded too forced even to him. “I need to go,” he continued, “but I will keep in touch.”
“I hope so.”
There was definite sincerity in her tone that both tightened the knot in Walter’s stomach as well as warmed him inside.
“Good bye, Clara,” he said. “And be careful.” He hung up before she could respond again. Dang it, he scolded himself. I should have said “Ms. Monahan” . . . more official. Still, he held little disappointment over how the call had turned out. That she wanted to see him again, even if it was the hero version of himself, was definitely a good sign. That meant that he had some kind of a chance.
He placed the handset back into the cradle, staring at it thoughtfully. When would he see her again? And what would he do when he did?