At some level, though, she suspected that her friend was right. Her love life—or rather, lack of one—did not really bother her on a regular basis, but events such as the upcoming fraternity party did give her a certain wistful feeling. It would be nice to attend attached to someone; it would help thwart nearly all of the drunken passes that she usually had to endure.
"Like that one there," Diana piped up, thankfully pointing with just a straw and not an entire outstretched arm.
Cynthia looked up to see young man about her own age. He was dressed in jeans that looked fairly new and buttoned-down shirt left open to reveal a dark t-shirt with some kind of logo inside. From the colors she could see, it did not appear to be for one the hard rock or metal bands. Good techno, she could handle; the rest sounded too much like people screaming to the accompaniment of poorly-played electric instruments for her taste.
She continued to watch him as he moved through adjacent courtyard. The backpack slung over one shoulder looked worn, but relatively new. He looked as though he had received a recent haircut and, if he had not shaved recently, it did not show from where she sat. Cynthia's eyes followed him as he approached a pair of two other students. He put his arm around one affectionately and pulled close for a kiss. As they parted a moment later, Cynthia recognized the other student. She did not know his name, but she knew that he lived in the dormitory building next to her own.
Grimacing slightly, she looked away to catch Diana smirking behind another onion ring. Cynthia's eyes automatically narrowed.
"Don't even . . ." she warned her friend tightly.
Diana, unable to contain herself any longer, burst into giggles. "I didn't know, Cyn," she protested, trying to catch a breath. "Honest!"
Continuing to stare hard at her friend, she finally relented when her abrupt sense of outrage struck even her as silly. She laughed and went to eating her salad, but not before catching one final giggle out of Diana.
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My favorite movie? Nicholas listened to the request with a high degree of incredulity. That was all they could tell him? At least he knew now that they were trying to communicate with him. Something in the way it was phrased gave him the impression that he was not being held captive, at least not in any usual sense. The suggestion he had been given to fill his time between visits, though, struck him as completely ridiculous.
So, for some period of time, Nicholas essentially sulked, determined to rebel against the voice's directions. It was his only means to exercise any control over his current situation, so he employed it. He did wonder whether there might be some kind of punishment in kind for ignoring the instructions, but what else could they do to him? He already had nothing.
He waited for a long while—or what seemed like one. As there had been for many days before, there was only silence. Still, Nicholas fumed, but found himself thinking obliquely about the voice’s suggestion. If he were to do it, what movie would he choose? Which movie had he seen last? And with who? Did it really have to be a recent movie? Or could it be one of his favorite ones? Did he have a favorite one?
These questions occupied Nicholas for a time. It became a minor source of amusement to him and then a challenge. Could he actually remember every line and every scene from the last movie had seen? Did seeing it on cable or downloaded video count? He decided not. Although his audible visitor had not specified it, Nicholas was certain that he meant the last movie he had seen in a theater. This led him back to the question of what it had been and when? Who had he been with there? He was certain that he did not see movies alone.
Trying to remember the details turned into a frustrating exercise, but he did realize something potentially important from it. He could not clearly remember anything that had happened to him more recently than a few months ago. Even then, his recall was spotty until he went even further back. He could retrieve entire scenes from his childhood: the ugly clown that had scared him at a birthday party, the pain of hitting his head on the sidewalk when he had slipped off his skateboard, seeing his mother cry when . . . when . . . why had she been crying? Something in the vantage point of the memory told him that it had not happened recently, but nor had it been long ago in his childhood.
He knew that he was twenty-three years old. He knew his name, Nicholas Aaron Jorgenson, named after his grandfather on one side and an uncle on the other—his mother’s?—side. He was attending college at . . . at . . . had attended college. No, he reminded himself, that was the community college where he had fulfilled his general education requirements while still trying to work to find a scholarship or, failing that, attempting to save enough money to pay his year at a university. It had been called Mount . . . Mount . . . something. St. Helens? No, that was the volcano mountain in . . . Washington.
His thoughts were wandering all over the place, he realized. The harder he tried to focus them, the more they seemed determined to shoot off in different, although somewhat related, directions. He remembered something from one of his English or Literature classes about “stream of consciousness”. He had found the concept boring then; he found it more than just a little irritating now.
Movies. He told himself. The last movie you saw. If he could not remember it immediately, he considered, maybe he could prompt its recall with some clues of his own. It was probably some kind of action-adventure flick. Even when there was a serious girlfriend involved, he almost never allowed himself to get dragged to anything else. It might have been some horror/slasher thing, but only if one or more of his friends managed to talk him into it. It was not that he was easily grossed out or frightened. In fact, he generally found them to be either boring or silly, if not both.
Wait, he wondered. Was there a girl involved? He searched his memories for someone who might have been one, but the recent past remained an impenetrable fog to him.
Okay, he finally asked himself, what the last movie you remember seeing? This forced him to try to sort what he could remember into chronological sequence. He found that much of it remained jumbled and he had to often rely on his limited knowledge of their approximate release dates to put them into proper order. Eventually, he stopped, once again stymied by his fragmented memory. There was no way, he told himself, that the last movie he had seen in a theater was Mission: Impossible III. On video, maybe, but even then he could not be certain.
His frustration began to build again, growing until he reached the point of thinking that the suggestion that the voice had given him was really stupid. He then stopped trying, falling once again into his own sullen silence.
After only a few moments, he began wonder which was worse: thinking about things that he could not remember, or not thinking at all. More than anything, though, he wished that the voice would return.
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Kincaid pushed the keyboard away and rubbed at his eyes. He had been working on his progress report and knew that he had started repeating himself. That was a sure sign that he had lost focus and it was time to do something else. He glanced at the time displayed on his screen and then stretched, feeling joints creak and cramped muscles complain. It was well past seven o’clock and, although he had arrived late that morning, he knew that he was done for the day. He had passed the point of still being productive and, whether Adamson liked it or not, his report could wait until later the next day.
He logged off, yawning as he waited for the screen to turn blank. It seemed to happen far too slowly, which told him just how tired he was. Suppressing another yawn, he rose and headed for the door. The hallway seemed quiet, which was not actually that surprising. Except on special occasions, most of the staff left the institute grounds around six o’clock in the evening.
Kincaid could not blame them, not really. The amenities of the institute were few after regular working hours. The cafeteria closed at two o’clock, except for the coffee counter. Unless one wanted to leave the institute buildings and return again that evening (and few did, even if they intended to), there was little to subsist on throughout the night except for stale coffee and what dubious nutrition might be coaxed from the various vending machines scattered through the institute’s buildings.
Turning off the main overhead lights in his office, Kincaid closed the door and headed for the short bank of elevators. Although he had done it many times during his time there, it always seemed a little bit eerie to walk the halls of the institute after everyone else had gone. The echo of his footsteps sounded strangely amplified, the ambient noises surprisingly muted, and sudden noises—like that of the elevator doors opening—seemed unusually loud and, even, menacing.