The First Officer watched after her for a long moment before her eyes too turned toward the pair of caskets.
“Does it ever get any easier?” she asked him. “Do you ever forget?”
Hawkes paused for a moment before answering. Several sharp memories flashed across his mind. Each remained as vivid as the day they had happened. For him, they would always remain that way.
“No, Commander,” he answered her quietly. “I do not.”
Elizabeth turned to him, studying his face. He did not turn away, certain that his expression revealed nothing. She frowned slightly, failing to find the answers that she sought there.
“If you’ll excuse me, Commander,” Hawkes said solemn respect. “I shall resume my duties.”
Elizabeth nodded once, slowly. “Of course.”
Hawkes left the chamber, feeling the gaze of the First Officer on him as he departed. It was the right thing to offer her truth. He also knew from experience that rarely made the truth any easier to live with.
#
Hope checked the vital signs on Lieutenant Karr. Although still lightly sedated, she was recovering well from her injuries. Depending on the results of the functional tests of her new arm, she might be released from the infirmary sometime the next day. Beneath the transparent antiseptic band, Hope could see the bright red suture line. The scar would fade in time, leaving no boundary between where the old skin and newly manufactured flesh were joined. Hope made a minor adjustment to the pain medication feed and then moved over to the next bed.
Ensign Martine remained in critical condition. Hope believed that he would recover, but the process would take several weeks. It had been necessary to resuscitate him twice before she was able to perform the surgery necessary to stabilize his condition. The functions of several of his key organs were now handled by artificial surrogates. There had been insufficient time to grow all of the biological replacements he needed due to grave nature of his injuries and the number of other critical casualties that required immediate treatment.
A ruptured chunk of deck plate had sliced across his chest, gouging out a large section of his torso. Hope had been surprised that he had arrived at the infirmary still alive. She had noted this in her medical log. As a result, she learned, both of those crew members had received special commendations from the Captain. That had not been her intent, only reporting the facts were, but both officers seemed pleased by the attention. They had even verbally expressed their gratitude to her, confusing her further.
The main hatch opened. Hope paused. The Captain had already come to the infirmary twice to check on the conditions of the Lieutenant and Ensign. Hope found her visits unnecessary, as the Captain’s presence provided no medical benefits. She was, however, the Captain and was entitled to inspect any section of the ship that she wished.
The heavy cadence of footfalls that followed did not belong to the Captain, as she expected, but to the Chief Engineer. Hope turned, watching as he came closer.
“Do you require medical attention?”
“I don’t think so,” the Chief Engineer said with unusual solemnity. “But I thought you might.”
Hope found herself caught completely off-guard. It took a moment before she could form an answer. She reviewed her understanding of the Chief Engineer’s behavior and mannerism, looking for a secondary meaning in his statement. She found none. His present behavior was inconsistent with her previous experience.
“I am not injured.”
“Are you sure?” the Chief Engineer asked her with a strange seriousness.
He walked slowly past the diagnostic beds. His gaze lingered over the occupant of each one, a frown forming shallows lines on his face. He continued on toward her desk, studying with interest the image suspended above it.
On it were three views of the Star Wing. Along the bottom scrolled strings of data that was certain the Chief Engineer would be unable to decipher. He seemed uninterested in it, though. His gaze remained fixed on the images of the Star Wing.
“She was something special, wasn’t she?” he said.
Only because she was the only other conscious being in the room did Hope believe that his question might have been directed to her.
“She was . . . unique.”
The Chief Engineer continued to stare at the image. “Yeah . . .” he whispered.
Hope waited silently, trying to understand the Chief Engineer’s unusual behavior.
I should run another neural activity scan.
The Chief Engineer looked away, seeming to struggle even as he did so, as if his gaze was locked in by something in the image.
He casually picked up a tablet from her desk and looked over its visible content. Only because she knew that it did not contain confidential patient data did she not immediately challenge him.
“Going to build yourself a new one?”
The Chief Engineer looked up from the tablet. Hope could tell from something in his eyes and expression that he had understood what he had read. She hesitated, not wanting to provide him with the truth, but knew that he would most likely persist until she did.
“I cannot.”
It hurt her to admit it, but her analysis of the data she had gathered so far pointed to that conclusion.
The Chief Engineer looked genuinely surprised. “Why not?”
“The template is gone.”
The Chief Engineer frowned, trying to understand. “But you have her cells . . . DNA . . . whatever?”
“I do.”
“Then what’s the problem?”
“The template is gone.”
“You keep saying that like I’m supposed to understand it.”
Hope studied the Chief Engineer. His heightened emotional state appeared similar to one he had exhibited when the ship had first entered this region of space. It felt different, though, as if something else were driving it.
“I am not a Creator.”
The Chief Engineer stared at her.
“I am not Human. The Star Wing was not Human.”
“That’s hardly news, Doc.”
The Chief Engineer appeared to relax slightly. Still, Hope remained concerned.
“I still don’t see the problem.”
“The template is lost.”
“Then let’s go find it,” the Chief Engineer said, his emotions rising once again. “I’m sure the Cap’n’ll—“
“Long ago.”
The Chief Engineer stared at her suspiciously. “How long?”
“Millennia.”
The Chief Engineer’s expression visibly slackened. “Oh.”
Hope and the Chief Engineer stood silently. It was still unclear to her why he had come. He was not injured. Unlike the Captain, he appeared to have no intent to visit the Lieutenant or Ensign.
“And no one knows where it might be?”
“Not on the home world.”
“Oh,” the Chief Engineer said again. “That doesn’t leave a lot of options, does it?”
“No.”
“You’re sure you can’t—?”
“No.”
Hope gazed hard at the Chief Engineer. His shoulders lowered slightly and he turned his head away. Hope turned to look once more at the floating images of the Star Wing.
“We will remember her.”
“Yeah, Doc,” the Chief Engineer sighed. “We will.”